Summary

The narrator still has trouble sleeping (188). Recently, her worries about finishing the novel and making money have kept her awake. Sometimes she wonders if she is "trying to sabotage" herself so she will not be able to finish the novel (190).

The narrator and Madeleine hosted two poets. During their readings, the narrator tried transporting herself based on the words they were using, but many of the poems were just sounds that made no sense.

She began sitting up and writing about the lover. She "wrote down everything [she] remembered about him" (195). Sometimes her reality, her writing, and her dreams became confused. She was unsure if she was trying to process the pain, or if she was writing because the pain was already gone. Sometimes the writing made him less real. When she saw him on the street, he seemed wrong. The real version...