How does Balram describe his feelings for Mr. Ashok in the opening of his letter in "The Second Night"?

Balram describes in the opening of this letter how devoted to Mr. Ashok he was and how he picked up a lot of knowledge, including his knowledge of English, from Mr. Ashok and Pinky Madam. He describes feeling “sentimental” about Mr. Ashok and comments on how murdering a man gives someone a uniquely intimate knowledge of him.

I appreciated reading your interpretation of Balram's feelings for Mr. Ashok in "The White Tiger." It's fascinating how you emphasized the complexities of their relationship, particularly the combination of admiration and resentment. It made me reflect on how cultural influences influence their dynamics. I'm curious if Balram's feelings would have been different if he hadn't noticed the dramatic disparities between luxury and poverty so intimately.