blamed himself for “buying days of misery by
nights of madness;” but the sweet soul was enchained,
and no struggles availed to work a blessed transformation.
Read his “Confessions of a Drunkard.”
It is the most awful chapter in English literature,
for it is written out of the agony of a pure and well-meaning
mind, and its tortured phrases seem to cry out from
the page that holds their misery. We are placed
face to face with a dread aspect of life, and the
remorseless artist paints his own pitiable case as
though he longed to save his fellow-creatures even
at the expense of his own self-abasement. All
these afflicted creatures sought the wrong remedy
for the exhaustion and the nameless craving that beset
them when they were spent with toil. The periodic
drinker takes his dive into the sensual mud-bath just
at the times when eager exertion has brought on lassitude
of body and mind. He begins by timidly drinking
a little of the deleterious stuff, and he finds that
his mental images grow bright and pleasant. A
moment comes to him when he would not change places
with the princes of the earth, and he endeavours to
make that moment last long. He fails, and only
succeeds in dropping into drunkenness. On the
morning after his first day he feels depressed; but
his biliary processes are undisturbed, and he is able
to begin again without any sense of nausea. His
quantity is increased until he gradually reaches the
point when glasses of spirits are poured down with
feverish rapidity. His appetite is sometimes voracious,
sometimes capricious, sometimes absent altogether.
His stomach becomes ulcerated, and he can obtain release
from the grinding uneasiness only by feeding the inflamed
organ with more and more alcohol. The liver ceases
to act healthily, the blood becomes charged with bile,
and one morning the wretch awakes feeling that life
is not worth having. He has slept like a log;
but all night through his outraged brain has avenged
itself by calling up crowds of hideous dreams.
The blood-vessels of the eye are charged with bilious
particles, and these intruding specks give rise to
fearful, exaggerated images of things that never yet
were seen on sea or land. Grim faces leer at
the dreamer and make mock of him; frightful animals
pass in procession before him; and hosts of incoherent
words are jabbered in his ear by unholy voices.
He wakes, limp, exhausted, trembling, nauseated, and
he feels as if he must choose between suicide and—more
drink. If he drinks at this stage, he is lost;
and then is the time to fix upon him and draw him
by main force from the slough.
Now some practitioners say, “Let him drop it gradually;” and they proceed to stir every molecule of alcohol in the system into vile activity by adding small doses of wine or spirit to the deadly accumulation. The man’s brain is impoverished, and the mistaken doctors proceed to impoverish it more, so that a patient who should be cured in forty-eight hours is kept in dragging misery for a month or more. The proper


