praise God’s mercy that no misfortune has occurred from any side.  I believe that for me it was inwardly very salutary to have felt myself so near unto death, and prepared myself for it; I know that you do not share my conception of such matters, but I have never felt so firm in believing trust, and so resigned to God’s will, as I did in the moment when the matter was in progress.  We can discuss it orally some time; now I only want to tell you how it happened.  I had repeatedly been disgusted by V.’s rudeness to the government and ourselves, and was prepared resolutely to oppose him at the next opportunity that offered.  He accused me of want of diplomatic discretion, and said that hitherto the “burning cigar” was my only known achievement.  He alluded to an occurrence at the Palace of the Diet, of which I had previously told him confidentially, at his particular request, as of something quite unimportant, but comical.  I then retorted from the platform that his remark overstepped not only the bounds of diplomatic but also of ordinary discretion, which one had a right to demand from every man of education.  Next day he challenged me, through Herr von Sauken-Julienfelde, for four pistol-shots; I accepted it after Oscar Arnim’s proposal, that we should fight with swords, had been declined by Sauken.  Vincke wished to defer the matter for forty-eight hours, which I granted.  On the 25th, at 8 A.M., we rode to Tegel; to a charming spot in the woods by the seashore; it was beautiful weather, and the birds sang so gayly in the sunshine that, as soon as we entered the wood, all sad thoughts left me; only the thought of Johanna I had to drive from me by force, so as not to be affected by it.  With me as witnesses were Arnim and Eberhard Stolberg, and my brother as very dejected spectator.  With V. were Sauken, and Major Vincke of the First Chamber, as well as a Bodelschwingh (nephew of the Minister and of Vincke), as impartial witness.  The latter declared before the matter began that the challenge seemed to him to be, under the circumstances, too stringent, and proposed that it should be modified to one shot apiece.  Sauken, in V.’s name, was agreeable to this, and had word brought to me that the whole thing should be called off if I declared I was sorry for my remark.  As I could not truthfully do this, we took our positions, fired at Bodelschwingh’s command, and both missed.  God forgive the grave sin that I did not at once recognize His mercy, but I cannot deny it:  when I looked through the smoke and saw my adversary standing erect, a feeling of disappointment prevented me from participating in the general rejoicing, which caused Bodelschwingh to shed tears; the modification of the challenge annoyed me, and I would gladly have continued the combat.  But, as I was not the insulted party, I could say nothing; it was over, and all shook hands.  We rode home and I ate with my sister alone.  All the world was dissatisfied with the outcome, but the Lord must know what He still intends to make of V.