time. She went to his room frequently, but always
when he was not at home. She adorned the doors
and walls with everything she had which she knew he
loved, and she spent many hours there at work.
She noticed the pallor of his face, which seemed to
become greater each time she saw him. As she
was but a mirror of his feelings, his pallor reflected
itself in her. She would have liked to cheer him
up, but she did not seek to be near him; her presence
seemed to have the opposite effect upon him from what
she desired. He was always friendly and full of
chivalrous respect toward her. This at least comforted
her to a certain extent. She had endowed him
with all the virtues that she knew; among these she
had not forgotten truthfulness, the first of them
all to her. Therefore she knew that he would not
compel himself to show respect to her if he did not
feel it. He made merry sometimes, especially
when he saw her eyes fixed anxiously upon his pale
face, but she noticed that her society did not make
him healthier or more cheerful. She would have
liked to ask him what was the matter. When he
stood before her she did not dare. When she was
alone she asked him. Many nights through she
thought of ways to entice the confession from him
and talked with him. Surely if he had heard her
weep, had heard how sweetly and tenderly she cajoled
and pleaded, had heard the dear names she gave him,
he would have told her what ailed him. Her whole
life was between heart and mouth; and when her heart
whispered in her ear what she had said, she flushed
rosily and hid her blushes deep beneath the covers
from herself and the listening night.
She confided her fears to the old inspector.
“Is it a wonder?” he asked, “when
a person sits all day long for a year and a half over
his business and all night long over books and letters?
And then all the anxiety he had about his—God
forgive him, he is dead and one should not speak ill
of the dead—about his brother; and then
the fright, which made me ill for three days, over—and
when his widow is there too—I never did
like him much, least of all toward the end. But
youth is so! I warned him a hundred times, the
brave fellow! And now the confounded quarry!
Such conscientiousness! He is one who would never
consider his own health.” The councilman
gave the young widow a long lecture which was not
in the least meant for her. Then they agreed
that Apollonius ought to have a doctor whether he wanted
him or not; and the councilman immediately went to
the best physician in town. The physician promised
to do all that was possible. He called on Apollonius,
who put up with him because those whom he loved desired
it. The doctor felt his pulse, came again and
again, prescribed and re-prescribed; Apollonius became
ever paler and gloomier. At last the good man
declared that here was a malady against which all art
was useless. So deep-seated was the trouble that
no remedy of his could reach it.