now see what injury a man may cause around him , even after wrong - doing at the fair when i was young , if i had never been so selfish as to let his giddy girl devote hereself to me over at jersey , to the injury of her name ,all might now be well . yet , as it stands , i must bittterly disappoint one of these women ; and it is the second . my first duty is to susan - there's no doubt about that