Project Gutenberg Complete Works of Winston Churchill eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 6,366 pages of information about Project Gutenberg Complete Works of Winston Churchill.

Project Gutenberg Complete Works of Winston Churchill eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 6,366 pages of information about Project Gutenberg Complete Works of Winston Churchill.

The thought of my wanderings since then became poignant, almost terrifying.  The room, with all its memories, was unchanged.  How safe I had been within its walls!  Why could I not have been, content with what it represented? of tradition, of custom,—­of religion?  And what was it within me that had lured me away from these?

I was miserable, indeed, but my misery was not of the kind I thought it ought to be.  At moments, when my mother relapsed into weeping, I glanced at her almost in wonder.  Such sorrow as hers was incomprehensible.  Once she surprised and discomfited me by lifting her head and gazing fixedly at me through her tears.

I recall certain impressions of the funeral.  There, among the pall-bearers, was my Cousin Robert Breck, tears in the furrows of his cheeks.  Had he loved my father more than I?  The sight of his grief moved me suddenly and strongly....  It seemed an age since I had worked in his store, and yet here he was still, coming to town every morning and returning every evening to Claremore, loving his friends, and mourning them one by one.  Was this, the spectacle presented by my Cousin Robert, the reward of earthly existence?  Were there no other prizes save those known as greatness of character and depth of human affections?  Cousin Robert looked worn and old.  The other pall-bearers, men of weight, of long standing in the community, were aged, too; Mr. Blackwood, and Mr. Jules Hollister; and out of place, somehow, in this new church building.  It came to me abruptly that the old order was gone,—­had slipped away during my absence.  The church I had known in boyhood had been torn down to make room for a business building on Boyne Street; the edifice in which I sat was expensive, gave forth no distinctive note; seemingly transitory with its hybrid interior, its shiny oak and blue and red organ-pipes, betokening a compromised and weakened faith.  Nondescript, likewise, seemed the new minister, Mr. Randlett, as he prayed unctuously in front of the flowers massed on the platform.  I vaguely resented his laudatory references to my father.

The old church, with its severity, had actually stood for something.  It was the Westminster Catechism in wood and stone, and Dr. Pound had been the human incarnation of that catechism, the fit representative of a wrathful God, a militant shepherd who had guarded with vigilance his respectable flock, who had protested vehemently against the sins of the world by which they were surrounded, against the “dogs, and sorcerers, and whoremongers, and murderers and idolaters, and whosoever loveth and maketh a lie.”  How Dr. Pound would have put the emphasis of the Everlasting into those words!

Against what was Mr. Randlett protesting?

My glance wandered to the pews which held the committees from various organizations, such as the Chamber of Commerce and the Bar Association, which had come to do honour to my father.  And there, differentiated from the others, I saw the spruce, alert figure of Theodore Watling.  He, too, represented a new type and a new note,—­this time a forceful note, a secular note that had not belonged to the old church, and seemed likewise anomalistic in the new....

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