cock flew after them, and noticing that everything
was topsy-turvy, pounced upon the cheese with the
eagerness of a craving long unsatisfied. When
I found myself being driven from the table by this
chaos of fluttering wings, I was filled with a gaiety
to which I had long been a stranger. I laughed
heartily, and looked round for the signboard of the
inn. I thereby discovered that my host rejoiced
in the name of Homo. This seemed a hint from
Fate, and I felt I must seek shelter here at all costs.
An extraordinarily small and narrow bedroom was shown
me, which I immediately engaged. Besides the
bed it held a rough table and two cane-bottomed chairs.
I arranged one of these as a washhand-stand, and on
the table I placed some books, writing materials,
and the score of Lohengrin, and almost heaved a sigh
of content in spite of my extremely cramped accommodation.
Though the weather remained uncertain and the woods
with their leafless trees did not seem to offer the
prospect of very enticing walks, I still felt that
here there was a possibility of my being forgotten,
and being also in my turn allowed to forget the events
that had lately filled me with Midi desperate anxiety.
My old artistic instinct awoke again. I looked
over my Lohengrin score, and quickly decided to send
it to Liszt and leave it to him to bring it out as
best he could. Now that I had got rid of this
score also, I felt as free as a bird and as careless
as Diogenes about what might befall me. I even
invited Kietz to come and stay with me and share the
pleasures of my retreat. He did actually come,
as he had done during my stay in. Mendon; but
he found me even more modestly installed than I had
been there. He was quite prepared to take pot-luck,
however, and cheerfully slept on an improvised bed,
promising to keep the world in touch with me upon
his return to Paris. I was suddenly startled
from my state of complacency by the news that my wife
had come to Paris to look me up. I had an hour’s
painful struggle with myself to settle the course
I should pursue, and decided not to allow the step
I had taken in regard to her to be looked upon as
an ill-considered and excusable vagary. I left
Montmorency and betook myself to Paris, summoned Kietz
to my hotel, and instructed him to tell my wife, who
had already been trying to gain admittance to him,
that he knew nothing more of me except that I had
left Paris. The poor fellow, who felt as much
pity for Minna as for me, was so utterly bewildered
on this occasion, that he declared that he felt as
though he were the axis upon which all the misery
in the world turned. But he apparently realised
the significance and importance of my decision, as
it was necessary he should, and acquitted himself
in this delicate matter with intelligence and good
feeling. That night t left Paris by train for
Clermont-Tonnerre, from whence I travelled on to Geneva,
there to await news from Frau Ritter in Dresden.
My exhaustion was such that, even had I possessed


