spared her as much as possible. After a few weeks
I thought I might consider the period of uneasiness
past, but was surprised to find the situation growing
worse again without any apparent reason. Minna
then told me of some advantageous offers she had received
from different theatres, and astonished me one day
by announcing her intention of taking a short pleasure
trip with a girl friend and her family. As I
felt obliged to avoid putting any restraint upon her,
I offered no objection to the execution of this project,
which entailed a week’s separation, but accompanied
her back to her parents myself, promising to await
her return quietly at Blasewitz. A few days later
her eldest sister called to ask me for the written
permission required to make out a passport for my
wife. This alarmed me, and I went to Dresden to
ask her parents what their daughter was about.
There, to my surprise, I met with a very unpleasant
reception; they reproached me coarsely for my behaviour
to Minna, whom they said I could not even manage to
support, and when I only replied by asking for information
as to the whereabouts of my wife, and about her plans
for the future, I was put off with improbable statements.
Tormented by the sharpest forebodings, and understanding
nothing of what had occurred, I went back to the village,
where I found a letter from Konigsberg, from Moller,
which poured light on all my misery. Herr Dietrich
had gone to Dresden, and I was told the name of the
hotel at which he was staying. The terrible illumination
thrown by this communication upon Minna’s conduct
showed me in a flash what to do. I hurried into
town to make the necessary inquiries at the hotel
mentioned, and found that the man in question had been
there, but had moved on again. He had vanished,
and Minna too! I now knew enough to demand of
the Fates why, at such an early age, they had sent
me this terrible experience which, as it seemed to
me, had poisoned my whole existence.
I sought consolation for my boundless grief in the
society of my sister Ottilie and her husband, Hermann
Brockhaus, an excellent fellow to whom she had been
married for some years. They were then living
at their pretty summer villa in the lovely Grosser
Garten, near Dresden. I had looked them up at
once the first time I went to Dresden, but as I had
not at that time the slightest idea of how things
were going to turn out, I had told them nothing, and
had seen but little of them. Now I was moved to
break my obstinate silence, and unfold to them the
cause of my misery, with but few reservations.
For the first time I was in a position gratefully
to appreciate the advantages of family intercourse,
and of the direct and disinterested intimacy between
blood relations. Explanations were hardly necessary,
and as brother and sister we found ourselves as closely
linked now as we had been when we were children.
We arrived at a complete understanding without having
to explain what we meant; I was unhappy, she was happy;
consolation and help followed as a matter of course.