Ardath eBook

Marie Corelli
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 793 pages of information about Ardath.

Ardath eBook

Marie Corelli
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 793 pages of information about Ardath.

A look of baffled longing and un gratified ambition came into his musing eyes,-his strong, shapely white hand clenched nervously, as though it grasped some unseen yet perfectly tangible substance.  Just then the storm without, which had partially lulled during the last few minutes, began its wrath anew:  a glare of lightning blazed against the uncurtained window, and a heavy clap of thunder burst overhead with the sudden crash of an exploding bomb.

“You care for Fame?” asked Ileliobas abruptly, as soon as the terrific uproar had subsided into a distant, dull rumbling mingled with the pattering dash of hail.

“I care for it—­yes!” replied Alwyn, and his voice was very low and dreamy.  “For though the world is a graveyard, as I have said, full of unmarked tombs, still here and there we find graves, such as Shelley’s or Byron’s, whereon pale flowers, like sweet suggestions of ever-silenced music, break into continuous bloom.  And shall I not win my own death-garland of asphodel?”

There was an indescribable, almost heart-rending pathos in his manner of uttering these last words—­a hopelessness of effort and a despairing sense of failure which he himself seemed conscious of, for, meeting the fixed and earnest gaze of Ileliobas, he quickly relapsed into his usual tone of indolent indifference.

“You see,” he said, with a forced smile, “my story is not very interesting!  No hairbreadth escapes, no thrilling adventures, no love intrigues—­nothing but mental misery, for which few people have any sympathy.  A child with a cut finger gets more universal commiseration than a man with a tortured brain and breaking heart, yet there can be no quotion as to which is the most intense duel long enduring anguish of the two.  However, such as my troubles are I have told you all I have laid bare my ’wound of living’—­a wound that throbs and burns, and aches, more intolerably with every pissing hour and day—­it is not unnatural, I think, that I should seek for a little cessation of suffering; a brief dreaming space in which to rest for a while, and escape from the deathful Truth—­Truth, that like the flaming sword placed east of the fabled garden of Eden, turns ruthlessly every way, keeping us out of the forfeited paradise of imaginative aspiration, which made the men of old time great because they deemed themselves immortal.  It was a glorious faith! that strong consciousness, that in the change and upheaval of whole universes the soul of man should forever over-ride disaster!  But now that we know ourselves to be of no more importance, relatively speaking, than the animalculae in a drop of stagnant water, what great works can be done, what noble deeds accomplished, in the face of the declared and proved futility of everything?  Still, if you can, as you say, liberate me from this fleshly prison, and give me new sensations and different experiences, why then let me depart with all possible speed, for I am certain I shall find in the storm-swept areas of space nothing worse than life as lived in this present world.  Remember, I am quite incredulous as to your professed power—­” he paused and glanced at the white-robed, priestly figure opposite, then added, lightly, “but I am curious to test it all the same.  Are you ready to being your spells?—­and shall I say the Nunc Dimittis?”

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