What an odd thing it is that boys are so delightful when they are alone, and so tiresome (not always) when they are together.  They seem, in public, to want to show their worst side, to be ashamed of being supposed to be good, or interested, or thoughtful, or tender-hearted.  They are so afraid of seeming better than they are, and pleased to appear worse than they are.  I wonder why this is?  It is the same more or less with most people; but one sees instincts at their nakedest among boys.  As I go on in life, the one thing I desire is simplicity and reality; pose is the one fatal thing.  The dullest person becomes interesting if you feel that he is really himself, that he is not holding up some absurd shield or other in front of his shivering soul.  And yet how hard it is, even when one appreciates the benefits and beauty of sincerity, to say what one really thinks, without reference to what one supposes the person one is talking to would like or expect one to think—­and to do it, too, without brusqueness or rudeness or self-assertion.

Boys are generally ashamed of saying anything that is good about each other; and yet they are as a rule intensely anxious to be popular, and pathetically unaware that the shortest cut to popularity is to see the good points in every one and not to shrink from mentioning them.  I once had a pupil, a simple-minded, serene, ordinary creature, who attained to extraordinary popularity.  I often wondered why; after he had left, I asked a boy to tell me; he thought for a moment, and then he said, “I suppose, sir, it was because when we were all talking about other chaps—­and one does that nearly all the time—­he used to be as much down on them as any one else, and he never jawed—­but he always had something nice to say about them, not made up, but as if it just came into his head.”

Well, I must stop; I suppose you are forging out over the Bay, and sleeping, I hope, like a top.  There is no sleep like the sleep on a steamer—­profound, deep, so that one wakes up hardly knowing where or who one is, and in the morning you will see the great purple league-long rollers.  I remember them; I generally felt very unwell; but there was something tranquillising about them, all the same—­ and then the mysterious steamers that used to appear alongside, pitching and tumbling, with the little people moving about on the decks; and a mile away in a minute.  Then the water in the wake, like marble, with its white-veined sapphire, and the hiss and smell of the foam; all that is very pleasant.  Good night, Herbert!—­Ever yours,

T. B.

Upton,
Feb. 9, 1904.