any idea in the mind of the writer that they would
be published, she would probably have been far more
reticent; but, as it was, she spoke with a perfect
openness and simplicity of all that was in her mind.
It is curious to reflect that I met the writer more
than once, and thought her a cold, hard, unsympathetic
woman. She had to endure many sorrows and bereavements,
losing, by untimely death, those whom she most loved;
but the revelation of her pain and bewilderment, and
the sublime and loving resignation with which she
bore it, has been to me a deep, holy, and reviving
experience. Here was one who felt grief acutely,
rebelliously, and passionately, yet whom sorrow did
not sear or harden, suffering did not make self-absorbed
or morbid, or pain make callous. Her love flowed
out more richly and tenderly than ever to those who
were left, even though the loss of those whom she
loved remained an unfading grief, an open wound.
She did not even shun the scenes and houses that reminded
her of her bereavements; she did not withdraw from
life, she made no parade of her sorrows. The
whole thing is so wholesome, so patient, so devoted,
that it has shown me, I venture to say, a higher possibility
in human nature of bearing intolerable calamities
with sweetness and courage, than I had dared to believe.
It seems to me that nothing more wise or brave could
have been done by the survivors than to make these
letters accessible to others. We English people
make such a secret of our feelings, are so stubbornly
reticent about the wrong things, have so false and
stupid a sense of decorum, that I am infinitely grateful
for this glimpse of a pure, patient, and devoted heart.
It seems to me that the one thing worth knowing in
this world is what other people think and feel about
the great experiences of life. The writers who
have helped the world most are those who have gone
deepest into the heart; but the dullest part of our
conventionality is that when a man disguises the secrets
of his soul in a play, a novel, a lyric, he is supposed
to have helped us and ministered to our deepest needs;
but if he speaks directly, in his own voice and person,
of these things, he is at once accused of egotism
and indecorum. It is not that we dislike sentiment
and feeling; we value it as much as any nation; but
we think that it must be spoken of symbolically and
indirectly. We do not consider a man egotistical,
if he will only give himself a feigned name, and write
of his experiences in the third person. But if
he uses the personal pronoun, he is thought to be
shameless. There are even people who consider
it more decent to say “one feels and one thinks,”
than to say “I feel and I think.”
The thing that I most desire, in intercourse with other
men and women, is that they should talk frankly of
themselves, their hopes and fears, their beliefs and
uncertainties. Yet how many people can do that?
Part of our English shyness is shown by the fact that
people are often curiously cautious about what they


