(247) Lord Elibank.

(248) Lady Orford.  She did marry Mr. Shirley.

103 Letter 40
To Sir Horace Mann. 
Arlington Street, May 30, 1751.

In your last of May 14th, you seem uneasy at not having heard from me in two posts.  I have writ you so exactly all the details that I know you would wish to hear, that I think my letters must have miscarried.  I will mention all the dates of this year; Feb. 8th, March 14th and 21st, April 1st, and May 1st; tell me if you have received all these.  I don’t pretend to say any thing to alleviate your concern for the late misfortunes, but will only recommend to you to harden yourself against every accident, as I endeavour to do.  The mortifications and disappointments I have experienced have taught me the philosophy that dwells not merely in speculation.  I choose to think about the world, as I have always found, when I most wanted its comfort, it thought about me, that is, not at all.  It is a disagreeable dream which must end for every body else as well as for oneself.  Some try to supply the emptiness and vanity of present life by something still more empty, fame.  I choose to comfort myself, by considering that even while I am lamenting any present uneasiness it is actually passing away.  I cannot feel the comfort of folly, because I am not a fool, and I scarce know any other being that it is worth one’s while to wish to be.  All this looks as if it proceeded from a train of melancholy ideas—­it does so:  but misfortunes have that good in them that they teach one indifference.

if I Could be mortified anew, I should be with a new disappointment, The immense and uncommon friendship of Mr. Chute had found a method of saving both my family and yours.  In short, in the height of his affliction for Whithed, whom he still laments immoderately, he undertook to get Miss Nicholl, the vast fortune, a fortune of above 150,000 pounds, whom Whithed was to have had, for Lord Orford.  He actually persuaded her to run away from her guardians, who used her inhumanly, and are her next heirs.  How clearly he is justified, you will see, when I tell you that the man, who has eleven hundred a-year for her maintenance, with which he stopped the demands Of his own creditors, instead of employing it for her maintenance and education, is since gone into the Fleet.  After such fair success, Lord Orford has refused to marry her; why, nobody can guess.  Thus had I placed him in a greater situation than even his grandfather hoped to bequeath to him, had retrieved all the oversights of my family, had saved Houghton and all our glory!-Now, all must go!-and what shocks me infinitely more, Mr. Chute, by excess of treachery, (a story too long for a letter,) is embroiled with his own brother the story, with many others, I believe I shall tell you in person; for I do not doubt but the disagreeable scenes which I have still to go through, will at last drive me to where I have long proposed to seek some peace.  But enough of these melancholy ideas!