Complete Project Gutenberg Works of George Meredith eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 10,116 pages of information about Complete Project Gutenberg Works of George Meredith.

Complete Project Gutenberg Works of George Meredith eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 10,116 pages of information about Complete Project Gutenberg Works of George Meredith.
eclipsed by representing nymphs triangularly posed, he devoted himself to his business from morning to night; as rigid in demanding respect from those beneath him, as he was profuse in lavishing it on his patrons.  His public boast was, that he owed no man a farthing; his secret comfort, that he possessed two thousand pounds in the Funds.  But Mr. Goren did not stop here.  Behind these external characteristics he nursed a passion.  Evan was astonished and pleased to find in him an enthusiastic fern-collector.  Not that Mr. Harrington shared the passion, but the sight of these brown roots spread out, ticketed, on the stained paper, after supper, when the shutters were up and the house defended from the hostile outer world; the old man poring over them, and naming this and that spot where, during his solitary Saturday afternoon and Sunday excursions, he had lighted on the rare samples exhibited this contrast of the quiet evening with the sordid day humanized Mr. Goren to him.  He began to see a spirit in the rigid tradesman not so utterly dissimilar to his own, and he fancied that he, too, had a taste for ferns.  Round Beckley how they abounded!

He told Mr. Goren so, and Mr. Goren said: 

‘Some day we’ll jog down there together, as the saying goes.’

Mr. Goren spoke of it as an ordinary event, likely to happen in the days to come:  not as an incident the mere mention of which, as being probable, stopped the breath and made the pulses leap.

For now Evan’s education taught him to feel that he was at his lowest degree.  Never now could Rose stoop to him.  He carried the shop on his back.  She saw the brand of it on his forehead.  Well! and what was Rose to him, beyond a blissful memory, a star that he had once touched?  Self-love kept him strong by day, but in the darkness of night came his misery; wakening from tender dreams, he would find his heart sinking under a horrible pressure, and then the fair fresh face of Rose swam over him; the hours of Beckley were revived; with intolerable anguish he saw that she was blameless—­that he alone was to blame.  Yet worse was it when his closed eyelids refused to conjure up the sorrowful lovely nightmare, and he lay like one in a trance, entombed-wretched Pagan! feeling all that had been blindly; when the Past lay beside him like a corpse that he had slain.

These nightly torments helped him to brave what the morning brought.  Insensibly also, as Time hardened his sufferings, Evan asked himself what the shame of his position consisted in.  He grew stiff-necked.  His Pagan virtues stood up one by one to support him.  Andrew, courageously evading the interdict that forbade him to visit Evan, would meet him by appointment at City taverns, and flatly offered him a place in the Brewery.  Evan declined it, on the pretext that, having received Old Tom’s money for the year, he must at least work out that term according to the conditions.  Andrew fumed and sneered at Tailordom. 

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