awakened within us by thought that ennoble and brighten
our life. Thought is our aim, perhaps; but it
may be with this as with many a journey we take—the
place we are bound for may interest us less than the
journey itself, the people we meet on the road, the
unforeseen that may happen. Here, as everywhere,
it is only the sincerity of human feeling that abides.
As for a thought, we know not, it may be deceptive;
but the love, wherewith we have loved it, will surely
return to our soul; nor can a single drop of its clearness
or strength be abstracted by error. Of that perfect
ideal that each of us strives to build up in himself,
the sum total of all our thoughts will help only to
model the outline; but the elements that go to construct
it, and keep it alive, are the purified passion, unselfishness,
loyalty, wherein these thoughts have had being.
The extent of our love for the thing which we hold
to be true is of greater importance than even the
truth itself. Does not love bring more goodness
to us than thought can ever convey? Loyally to
love a great error may well be more helpful than meanly
to serve a great truth; for in doubt, no less than
in faith, are passion and love to be found. Some
doubts are as generous and passionate as the very
noblest convictions. Be a thought of the loftiest,
surest, or of the most profoundly uncertain, the best
that it has to offer is still the chance that it gives
us of loving some one thing wholly, without reserve.
Whether it be to man, or a God; to country, to world
or to error, that I truly do yield myself up, the
precious ore that shall some day be found buried deep
in the ashes of love will have sprung from the love
itself, and not from the thing that I loved. The
sincerity of an attachment, its simplicity, firmness,
and zeal— these leave a track behind them
that time can never efface. All passes away and
changes; it may be that all is lost, save only the
glow of this ardour, fertility, and strength of our
heart.
96. “Never did man possess his soul in
such peace as he,” says Saint-Simon of one of
them, who was surrounded on all sides by malice, and
scheming, and snares. And further on he speaks
of the “wise tranquillity” of another,
and this “wise tranquillity” pervades
every one of those whom he terms the “little
flock.” The “little flock,”
truly, of fidelity to all that was noblest in thought;
the “little flock” of friendship, loyalty,
self-respect, and inner contentment, that pass along,
radiant with peace and simplicity, in the midst of
the lies and ambitions, the follies and treacheries,
of Versailles. They are not saints, in the vulgar
sense of the word. They have not fled to the
depths of forest or desert, or sought egotistic shelter
in narrow cells. They are sages, who remain within
life and the things that are real. It is not their
piety that saves them; it is not in God alone that
their soul has found strength. To love God, and
to serve Him with all one’s might, will not