“You have believed that all these years?”

“I have done my best not to believe it.  The last twelve months have disproved it.”

He shook his head.  “They haven’t.  Nothing I can do in this world can disprove it.  What that man said was true.”

“True?”

I drew a deep breath and stared at him hard.  His eyes met mine.  They were very sad and behind them lay great pain.  Although I expressed astonishment, it proceeded rather from some reflex action than from any realised shock to my consciousness.  I say the whole thing was uncanny.  I knew, as soon as he sat down by the table, that he would confess to the Vilboek story.  And yet, at last, when he did confess and there were no doubts lingering in my mind, I gasped and stared at him.

“I was a bloody coward,” he said.  “That’s frank enough.  When they rode away and left me, I tried to shoot myself—­and I couldn’t.  If the man Somers hadn’t returned, I think I should have waited until they sent to arrest me.  But he did come back and the instinct of self-preservation was too strong.  I know my story about the men’s desertion and my forcing him to back me up was vile and despicable.  But I clung to life and it was my only chance.  Afterwards, with the horror of the thing hanging over me, I didn’t care so much about life.  In the little fighting that was left for me I deliberately tried to throw it away.  I ask you to believe that.”

“I do,” I said.  “You were mentioned in dispatches for gallantry in action.”

He passed his hand over his eyes.  Looking up, he said: 

“It is strange that you of all men, my neighbour here, should have heard of this.  Not a whisper of its being known has ever reached me.  How many people do you think have any idea of it?”

I told him all that I knew and concluded by showing him Reggie Dacre’s letter, which I had kept in the letter-case in my pocket.  He returned it to me without a word.  Presently he broke a spell of silence.  All this time he had sat fixed in the one attitude—­only shifted once, when Marigold entered to clear away the breakfast things and was dismissed by me with a glance and a gesture.

“Do you remember,” he said, “a talk we had about fear, in April, the first time I was over?  I described what I knew.  The paralysis of fear.  Since we are talking as I never thought to talk with a human being, I may as well make my confession.  I’m a man of strong animal passions.  When I see red, I daresay I’m just a brute beast.  But I’m a physical coward.  Owing to this paralysis of fear, this ghastly inhibition of muscular or nervous action, I have gone through things even worse than that South-African business.  I go about like a man under a curse.  Even out there, when I don’t care a damn whether I live or die, the blasted thing gets hold of me.”  He swung himself away from the table and shook his great clenched firsts.  “By the grace of God, no one yet has seemed to notice it.  I suppose I have a swift brain and as soon as the thing is over I can cover it up.  It’s my awful terror that one day I shall be found out and everything I’ve gained shall be stripped away from me.”