of bitter remembrance through life, always with that
terrible sword of Damocles hanging over him. But
still, he would write out his confession, and after
his death, whenever it may happen, it might help if
not altogether to exculpate, at least to secure some
pity for a man who had been hardly dealt with by Fate.
His resolution taken, he put it into force at once,
and sat all day at his desk filling page after page
with the history of his past life, which was so bitter
to him. He started at first languidly, and as
in the performance of an unpleasant but necessary
duty. Soon, however, he became interested in
it, and took a peculiar pleasure in putting down every
minute circumstance which made the case stronger against,
himself. He dealt with it, not as a criminal,
but as a prosecutor, and painted his conduct as much
blacker than it really had been. Towards the end
of the day, however, after reading over the earlier
sheets, he experienced a revulsion of feeling, seeing
how severe he had been on himself, so he wrote a defence
of his conduct, showing that fate had been too strong
for him. It was a weak argument to bring forward,
but still he felt it was the only one that he could
make. It was quite dark when he had finished,
and while sitting in the twilight, looking dreamily
at the sheets scattered all over his desk, he heard
a knock at the door, and his daughter’s voice
asking if he was coming to dinner. All day long
he had closed his door against everyone, but now his
task being ended, he collected all the closely-written
sheets together, placed them in a drawer of his escritoire,
which he locked, and then opened the door.
“Dear papa,” cried Madge, as she entered
rapidly, and threw her arms around his neck, “what
have you been doing here all day by yourself?”
“Writing,” returned her father laconically,
as he gently removed her arms.
“Why, I thought you were ill,” she answered,
looking at him apprehensively.
“No, dear,” he replied, quietly.
“Not ill, but worried.”
“I knew that dreadful man who came last night
had told you something to worry you. Who is he?”
“Oh! a friend of mine,” answered Frettlby,
with hesitation.
“What—Roger Moreland?”
Her father started.
“How do you know it was Roger Moreland?”
“Oh! Brian recognised him as he went out.”
Mark Frettlby hesitated for a few moments, and then
busied himself with the papers on his desk, as he
replied in a low voice—
“You are right—it was Roger Moreland—he
is very hard up, and as he was a friend of poor Whyte’s,
he asked me to assist him, which I did.”
He hated to hear himself telling such a deliberate
falsehood, but there was no help for it—Madge
must never know the truth so long as he could conceal
it.
“Just like you,” said Madge, kissing him
lightly with filial pride. “The best and
kindest of men.”
He shivered slightly as he felt her caress, and thought
how she would recoil from him did she know all.
“After all,” says some cynical writer,
“the illusions of youth are mostly due to the
want of experience.” Madge, ignorant in
a great measure of the world, cherished her pleasant
illusions, though many of them had been destroyed by
the trials of the past year, and her father longed
to keep her in this frame of mind.