Dubliners eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 256 pages of information about Dubliners.

Dubliners eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 256 pages of information about Dubliners.

While he was sitting helplessly on the side of the bed in shirt and trousers she tapped lightly at his door and entered.  She told him all, that she had made a clean breast of it to her mother and that her mother would speak with him that morning.  She cried and threw her arms round his neck, saying: 

“O Bob!  Bob!  What am I to do?  What am I to do at all?”

She would put an end to herself, she said.

He comforted her feebly, telling her not to cry, that it would be all right, never fear.  He felt against his shirt the agitation of her bosom.

It was not altogether his fault that it had happened.  He remembered well, with the curious patient memory of the celibate, the first casual caresses her dress, her breath, her fingers had given him.  Then late one night as he was undressing for she had tapped at his door, timidly.  She wanted to relight her candle at his for hers had been blown out by a gust.  It was her bath night.  She wore a loose open combing- jacket of printed flannel.  Her white instep shone in the opening of her furry slippers and the blood glowed warmly behind her perfumed skin.  From her hands and wrists too as she lit and steadied her candle a faint perfume arose.

On nights when he came in very late it was she who warmed up his dinner.  He scarcely knew what he was eating feeling her beside him alone, at night, in the sleeping house.  And her thoughtfulness!  If the night was anyway cold or wet or windy there was sure to be a little tumbler of punch ready for him.  Perhaps they could be happy together....

They used to go upstairs together on tiptoe, each with a candle, and on the third landing exchange reluctant goodnights.  They used to kiss.  He remembered well her eyes, the touch of her hand and his delirium....

But delirium passes.  He echoed her phrase, applying it to himself:  “What am I to do?” The instinct of the celibate warned him to hold back.  But the sin was there; even his sense of honour told him that reparation must be made for such a sin.

While he was sitting with her on the side of the bed Mary came to the door and said that the missus wanted to see him in the parlour.  He stood up to put on his coat and waistcoat, more helpless than ever.  When he was dressed he went over to her to comfort her.  It would be all right, never fear.  He left her crying on the bed and moaning softly:  “O my God!”

Going down the stairs his glasses became so dimmed with moisture that he had to take them off and polish them.  He longed to ascend through the roof and fly away to another country where he would never hear again of his trouble, and yet a force pushed him downstairs step by step.  The implacable faces of his employer and of the Madam stared upon his discomfiture.  On the last flight of stairs he passed Jack Mooney who was coming up from the pantry nursing two bottles of Bass.  They saluted coldly; and the lover’s eyes rested for a second or two on a thick bulldog face and a pair of thick short arms.  When he reached the foot of the staircase he glanced up and saw Jack regarding him from the door of the return-room.

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