“You are mad, Carson,” my father answered.  “How will you live?  How can you educate Stella?  Be a man and wear it down.”

“I will be a man, and I will wear it down, but not here, Quatermain.  Education!  Was not she—­that woman who was my wife—­was not she highly educated?—­the cleverest woman in the country forsooth.  Too clever for me, Quatermain—­too clever by half!  No, no, Stella shall be brought up in a different school; if it be possible, she shall forget her very name.  Good-bye, old friend, good-bye for ever.  Do not try to find me out, henceforth I shall be like one dead to you, to you and all I knew,” and he was gone.

“Mad,” said my father, with a heavy sigh.  “His trouble has turned his brain.  But he will think better of it.”

At that moment the nurse came hurrying in and whispered something in his ear.  My father’s face turned deadly pale.  He clutched at the table to support himself, then staggered from the room.  My mother was dying!

It was some days afterwards, I do not know exactly how long, that my father took me by the hand and led me upstairs into the big room which had been my mother’s bedroom.  There she lay, dead in her coffin, with flowers in her hand.  Along the wall of the room were arranged three little white beds, and on each of the beds lay one of my brothers.  They all looked as though they were asleep, and they all had flowers in their hands.  My father told me to kiss them, because I should not see them any more, and I did so, though I was very frightened.  I did not know why.  Then he took me in his arms and kissed me.

“The Lord hath given,” he said, “and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.”

I cried very much, and he took me downstairs, and after that I have only a confused memory of men dressed in black carrying heavy burdens towards the grey churchyard!

Next comes a vision of a great ship and wide tossing waters.  My father could no longer bear to live in England after the loss that had fallen on him, and made up his mind to emigrate to South Africa.  We must have been poor at the time—­indeed, I believe that a large portion of our income went from my father on my mother’s death.  At any rate we travelled with the steerage passengers, and the intense discomfort of the journey with the rough ways of our fellow emigrants still remain upon my mind.  At last it came to an end, and we reached Africa, which I was not to leave again for many, many years.

In those days civilization had not made any great progress in Southern Africa.  My father went up the country and became a missionary among the Kaffirs, near to where the town of Cradock now stands, and here I grew to manhood.  There were a few Boer farmers in the neighbourhood, and gradually a little settlement of whites gathered round our mission station—­a drunken Scotch blacksmith and wheelwright was about the most interesting character, who, when he was sober,