I have not referred [she wrote] to what you said to me when we last met.  It seems almost useless to refer to it, doesn’t it?  You see how I am placed here, and I have written you what I mean to do.  And please understand I am doing it gladly, I am happy in having the opportunity to do it; but it does mean that for years my life and interest must be here with them.  Even if I were sure of my own feelings—­and perhaps I am not really sure—­I certainly should not think of asking one I cared for to wait so long.  You have your future to think of, Crawford, and you must think of it.  And there is your father.  Of course, I don’t know, but I somehow feel certain that he will not wish you to marry me.  Don’t you think it better for us both to end it now?  It seems so hopeless.

Which, she flattered herself, was brave and sensible and right.  And, having reached this commendable conclusion and sealed and posted the letter, she came back to the house, went upstairs to her room, and, throwing herself upon the bed, cried bitterly for many minutes.

Yet, in a way, her tears were wasted.  It takes two to make a bargain and although she might notify Crawford Smith that his case was hopeless, it by no means followed that that young gentleman would accept the notification as final.  His reply to her letter was prompt and convincing.  All the references to ending it were calmly brushed aside.  There could be but two endings, one being their marriage—­this, of course, the logical and proper ending—­and the other Mary’s notifying him that she did not love him.  Anything else was nonsense and not worth consideration.  Wait!  He would wait fifty years if necessary, provided she would wait for him.  He was about to take up his studies again, but now he would feel that he was working for her.  His father, he was sorry to say, was not at all well.  He was very nervous, weak and irritable.

I came home [he wrote] fully determined to tell him of you and my determination to marry you—­always provided you will have me, you know—­on the very night of my arrival.  But when I saw how poor old Dad was feeling and after the doctor told me how very necessary it was that his nervous system be allowed a complete rest, I decided I must wait.  So I shall wait; perhaps I shall not tell him for months; but just as soon as he is able to hear, I shall speak, and I am sure he will say, “Good luck and God bless you.”  But if he doesn’t, it will make not the slightest difference.  If you will have me, Mary dear, nothing on this earth is going to stop my having you.  That’s as settled and solid a fact as the Rocky Mountains.

He pleaded for a letter at least once a week.

You needn’t put a word of love in it [he wrote].  I know how conscientious you are, and I know perfectly well that until your mind is made up you won’t feel it right to encourage me in the least.  But do please write, if only to tell me how you are getting on with Hamilton and Company.  I only wish I were there to help you pull those fine old uncles of yours out of the hot water.  I know you’ll do it, though.  And meanwhile I shall be digging away out here and thinking of you.  Please write often.