and meanwhile strove, on all fitting occasions, to
impress them with the gross fraud and inhumanity of
slavery. I went first to Henry, next to John,
then to the others. I found, in them all, warm
hearts and noble spirits. They were ready to
hear, and ready to act when a feasible plan should
be proposed. This was what I wanted. I talked
to them of our want of manhood, if we submitted to
our enslavement without at least one noble effort to
be free. We met often, and consulted frequently,
and told our hopes and fears, recounted the difficulties,
real and imagined, which we should be called on to
meet. At times we were almost disposed to give
up, and try to content ourselves with our wretched
lot; at others, we were firm and unbending in our
determination to go. Whenever we suggested any
plan, there was shrinking—the odds were
fearful. Our path was beset with the greatest
obstacles; and if we succeeded in gaining the end of
it, our right to be free was yet questionable—we
were yet liable to be returned to bondage. We
could see no spot, this side of the ocean, where we
could be free. We knew nothing about Canada.
Our knowledge of the north did not extend farther
than New York; and to go there, and be forever harassed
with the frightful liability of being returned to
slavery—with the certainty of being treated
tenfold worse than before—the thought was
truly a horrible one, and one which it was not easy
to overcome. The case sometimes stood thus:
At every gate through which we were to pass, we saw
a watchman—at every ferry a guard—on
every bridge a sentinel—and in every wood
a patrol. We were hemmed in upon every side.
Here were the difficulties, real or imagined—the
good to be sought, and the evil to be shunned.
On the one hand, there stood slavery, a stern reality,
glaring frightfully upon us,—its robes already
crimsoned with the blood of millions, and even now
feasting itself greedily upon our own flesh.
On the other hand, away back in the dim distance, under
the flickering light of the north star, behind some
craggy hill or snow-covered mountain, stood a doubtful
freedom—half frozen—beckoning
us to come and share its hospitality. This in
itself was sometimes enough to stagger us; but when
we permitted ourselves to survey the road, we were
frequently appalled. Upon either side we saw grim
death, assuming the most horrid shapes. Now it
was starvation, causing us to eat our own flesh;—now
we were contending with the waves, and were drowned;—now
we were overtaken, and torn to pieces by the fangs
of the terrible bloodhound. We were stung by
scorpions, chased by wild beasts, bitten by snakes,
and finally, after having nearly reached the desired
spot,—after swimming rivers, encountering
wild beasts, sleeping in the woods, suffering hunger
and nakedness,—we were overtaken by our
pursuers, and, in our resistance, we were shot dead
upon the spot! I say, this picture sometimes
appalled us, and made us
“rather bear those
ills we had,
Than fly to others,
that we knew not of.”


