Her room was always kept ready for her.  Often she would lie there, watching the moonlight creep across the floor; and a curious feeling would come to her of being something wandering, incomplete.  She would see as through a mist the passionate, restless child with the rebellious eyes to whom the room had once belonged; and later the strangely self-possessed girl with that impalpable veil of mystery around her who would stand with folded hands, there by the window, seeming always to be listening.  And she, too, had passed away.  The tears would come into her eyes, and she would stretch out yearning arms towards their shadowy forms.  But they would only turn upon her eyes that saw not, and would fade away.

In the day-time, when Arthur and her father were at the works, she would move through the high, square, stiffly-furnished rooms, or about the great formal garden, with its ordered walks and level lawns.  And as with knowledge we come to love some old, stern face our childish eyes had thought forbidding, and would not have it changed, there came to her with the years a growing fondness for the old, plain brick-built house.  Generations of Allways had lived and died there:  men and women somewhat narrow, unsympathetic, a little hard of understanding; but at least earnest, sincere, seeking to do their duty in their solid, unimaginative way.  Perhaps there were other ways besides those of speech and pen.  Perhaps one did better, keeping to one’s own people; the very qualities that separated us from them being intended for their need.  What mattered the colours, so that one followed the flag?  Somewhere, all roads would meet.

Arthur had to be in London generally once or twice a month, and it came to be accepted that he should always call upon her and “take her out.”  She had lost the self-sufficiency that had made roaming about London by herself a pleasurable adventure; and a newly-born fear of what people were saying and thinking about her made her shy even of the few friends she still clung to, so that his visits grew to be of the nature of childish treats to which she found herself looking forward—­counting the days.  Also, she came to be dependent upon him for the keeping alight within her of that little kindly fire of self-conceit at which we warm our hands in wintry days.  It is not good that a young woman should remain for long a stranger to her mirror—­above her frocks, indifferent to the angle of her hat.  She had met the women superior to feminine vanities.  Handsome enough, some of them must once have been; now sunk in slovenliness, uncleanliness, in disrespect to womanhood.  It would not be fair to him.  The worshipper has his rights.  The goddess must remember always that she is a goddess—­must pull herself together and behave as such, appearing upon her pedestal becomingly attired; seeing to it that in all things she is at her best; not allowing private grief to render her neglectful of this duty.