Yet it seemed to me as though such a misfortune ought to have changed everything.  Our old mode of life appeared like an insult to her memory.  It recalled too vividly her presence.

The day before the funeral I felt as though I should like to rest a little after luncheon, and accordingly went to Natalia Savishna’s room with the intention of installing myself comfortably under the warm, soft down of the quilt on her bed.  When I entered I found Natalia herself lying on the bed and apparently asleep, but, on hearing my footsteps, she raised herself up, removed the handkerchief which had been protecting her face from the flies, and, adjusting her cap, sat forward on the edge of the bed.  Since it frequently happened that I came to lie down in her room, she guessed my errand at once, and said: 

“So you have come to rest here a little, have you?  Lie down, then, my dearest.”

“Oh, but what is the matter with you, Natalia Savishna?” I exclaimed as I forced her back again.  “I did not come for that.  No, you are tired yourself, so you lie down.”

“I am quite rested now, darling,” she said (though I knew that it was many a night since she had closed her eyes).  “Yes, I am indeed, and have no wish to sleep again,” she added with a deep sigh.

I felt as though I wanted to speak to her of our misfortune, since I knew her sincerity and love, and thought that it would be a consolation to me to weep with her.

“Natalia Savishna,” I said after a pause, as I seated myself upon the bed, “who would ever have thought of this?”

The old woman looked at me with astonishment, for she did not quite understand my question.

“Yes, who would ever have thought of it?” I repeated.

“Ah, my darling,” she said with a glance of tender compassion, “it is not only ‘Who would ever have thought of it?’ but ’Who, even now, would ever believe it?’ I am old, and my bones should long ago have gone to rest rather than that I should have lived to see the old master, your Grandpapa, of blessed memory, and Prince Nicola Michaelovitch, and his two brothers, and your sister Amenka all buried before me, though all younger than myself—­and now my darling, to my never-ending sorrow, gone home before me!  Yet it has been God’s will.  He took her away because she was worthy to be taken, and because He has need of the good ones.”

This simple thought seemed to me a consolation, and I pressed closer to Natalia, She laid her hands upon my head as she looked upward with eyes expressive of a deep, but resigned, sorrow.  In her soul was a sure and certain hope that God would not long separate her from the one upon whom the whole strength of her love had for many years been concentrated.