Michael eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 387 pages of information about Michael.

Michael eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 387 pages of information about Michael.

She was silent again, so long that Hermann reached out for a cigarette, lit it, and threw away the match before she spoke.

“There is Michael’s position,” she said.  “When Michael asks me if I will have him, as we both know he is going to do, I shall have to make conditions.  I won’t give up my career.  I must go on working—­in other words, singing—­whether I marry him or not.  I don’t call it singing, in my sense of the word, to sing ‘The Banks of Allan Water’ to Michael and his father and mother at Ashbridge, any more than it is being a politician to read the morning papers and argue about the Irish question with you.  To have a career in politics means that you must be a member of Parliament—­I daresay the House of Lords would do—­and make speeches and stand the racket.  In the same way, to be a singer doesn’t mean to sing after dinner or to go squawking anyhow in a workhouse, but it means to get up on a platform before critical people, and if you don’t do your very best be damned by them.  If I marry Michael I must go on singing as a professional singer, and not become an amateur—­the Viscountess Comber, who sings so charmingly.  I refuse to sing charmingly; I will either sing properly or not at all.  And I couldn’t not sing.  I shall have to continue being Miss Falbe, so to speak.”

“You say you insist on it,” said Hermann; “but whether you did or not, there is nothing more certain than that Michael would.”

“I am sure he would.  But by so doing he would certainly quarrel irrevocably with his people.  Even Aunt Barbara, who, after all, is very liberally minded, sees that.  They can none of them, not even she, who are born to a certain tradition imagine that there are other traditions quite as stiff-necked.  Michael, it is true, was born to one tradition, but he has got the other, as he has shown very clearly by refusing to disobey it.  He will certainly, as you say, insist on my endorsing the resolution he has made for himself.  What it comes to is this, that I can’t marry him without his father’s complete consent to all that I have told you.  I can’t have my career disregarded, covered up with awkward silences, alluded to as a painful subject; and, as I say, even Aunt Barbara seemed to take it for granted that if I became Lady Comber I should cease to be Miss Falbe.  Well, there she’s wrong, my dear; I shall continue to be Miss Falbe whether I’m Lady Comber, or Lady Ashbridge, or the Duchess of anything you please.  And—­here the difficulty really comes in—­they must all see how right I am.  Difficulty, did I say?  It’s more like an impossibility.”

Hermann threw the end of his cigarette into the ashes of the dying fire.

“It’s clear, then,” he said, “you have made up your mind not to marry him.”

She shook her head.

“Oh, Hermann, you fail me,” she said.  “If I had made up my mind not to I shouldn’t have kept you up an hour talking about it.”

He stretched his hands out towards the embers already coated with grey ash.

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