“Will you tell me what they are?”

“Good heavens, no!” he exploded.  “The man’s a radical, too.  That in itself ought to be enough.”

“You can’t condemn a man for his political opinions.”

“Political opinions!”

“Besides,” she said, looking at him with her direct gaze, “isn’t there some reason in what the radicals believe, father?  Maybe it is a dream that can’t come true, but it is rather a fine dream, isn’t it?”

It was then that Howard followed his father’s example, and flung out of the room.

After that Lily went, very deliberately and without secrecy, to the house on Cardew Way.  She found a welcome there, not so marked on her Aunt Elinor’s part as on Doyle’s, but a welcome.  She found approval, too, where at home she had only suspicion and a solicitude based on anxiety.  She found a clever little circle there, and sometimes a cultured one; underpaid, disgruntled, but brilliant professors from the college, a journalist or two, a city councilman, even prosperous merchants, and now and then strange bearded foreigners who were passing through the city and who talked brilliantly of the vision of Lenine and the future of Russia.

She learned that the true League of Nations was not a political alliance, but a union of all the leveled peoples of the world.  She had no curiosity as to how this leveling was to be brought about.  All she knew was that these brilliant dreamers made her welcome, and that instead of the dinner chat at home, small personalities, old Anthony’s comments on his food, her father’s heavy silence, here was world talk, vast in its scope, idealistic, intoxicating.

Almost always Louis Akers was there; it pleased her to see how the other men listened to him, deferred to his views, laughed at his wit.  She did not know the care exercised in selecting the groups she was to meet, the restraints imposed on them.  And she could not know that from her visits the Doyle establishment was gaining a prestige totally new to it, an almost respectability.

Because of those small open forums, sometimes noted in the papers, those innocuous gatherings, it was possible to hold in that very room other meetings, not open and not innocuous, where practical plans took the place of discontented yearnings, and where the talk was more often of fighting than of brotherhood.

She was, by the first of May, frankly infatuated with Louis Akers, yet with a curious knowledge that what she felt was infatuation only.  She would lie wide-eyed at night and rehearse painfully the weaknesses she saw so clearly in him.  But the next time she saw him she would yield to his arms, passively but without protest.  She did not like his caresses, but the memory of them thrilled her.

She was following the first uncurbed impulse of her life.  Guarded and more or less isolated from other youth, she had always lived a strong inner life, purely mental, largely interrogative.  She had had strong childish impulses, sometimes of pure affection, occasionally of sheer contrariness, but always her impulses had been curbed.