He bade a stiff good-bye to his neighbours, and to Nancy he vouchsafed little more.  A handshake, with no thrill of love in it such as might have furnished her palm, at least, some memories to dwell upon; a few stilted words of leave-taking; a halting, meaningless sentence or two about his “botch” of life—­then he walked away from the Wentworth doorstep.  But half way down the garden path, where the shrivelled hollyhocks stood like sentinels, did a wave of something different sweep over him—­a wave of the boyish, irresponsible past when his heart had wings and could fly without fear to its mate—­a wave of the past that was rushing through Nancy’s mind, well-nigh burying her in its bitter-sweet waters!  For he lifted his head, and suddenly retracing his steps, he came toward her, and, taking her hand again, said forlornly:  “You’ll see me back when my luck turns, Nancy.”

Nancy knew that the words might mean little or much, according to the manner in which they were uttered, but to her hurt pride and sore, shamed woman-instinct, they were a promise, simply because there was a choking sound in Justin’s voice and tears in Justin’s eyes.  “You’ll see me back when my luck turns, Nancy;” this was the phrase upon which she had lived for more than ten years.  Nancy had once heard the old parson say, ages ago, that the whole purpose of life was the growth of the soul; that we eat, sleep, clothe ourselves, work, love, all to give the soul another day, month, year, in which to develop.  She used to wonder if her soul could be growing in the monotonous round of her dull duties and her duller pleasures.  She did not confess it even to herself; nevertheless she knew that she worked, ate, slept, to live until Justin’s luck turned.  Her love had lain in her heart a bird without a song, year after year.  Her mother had dwelt by her side and never guessed; her father too; and both were dead.  The neighbours also, lynx-eyed and curious, had never suspected.  If she had suffered, no one in Edgewood was any the wiser, for the maiden heart is not commonly worn on the sleeve in New England.  If she had been openly pledged to Justin Peabody, she could have waited twice ten years with a decent show of self-respect, for long engagements were viewed rather as a matter of course in that neighbourhood.  The endless months had gone on since that grey November day when Justin had said good-bye.  It had been just before Thanksgiving, and she went to church with an aching and ungrateful heart.  The parson read from the eighth chapter of St. Matthew, a most unexpected selection for that holiday.  “If you can’t find anything else to be thankful for,” he cried, “go home and be thankful you are not a leper!”

Nancy took the drastic counsel away from the church with her, and it was many a year before she could manage to add to this slender store anything to increase her gratitude for mercies given, though all the time she was outwardly busy, cheerful, and helpful.