Phineas Finn eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 986 pages of information about Phineas Finn.

Phineas Finn eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 986 pages of information about Phineas Finn.

“No;—­no, no; do not say it.”

“But I have said it, and will say it again.  I, poor, penniless, plain simple fool that I am, have been ass enough to love you, Lady Laura Standish; and I brought you up here to-day to ask you to share with me—­my nothingness.  And this I have done on soil that is to be all your own.  Tell me that you regard me as a conceited fool,—­as a bewildered idiot.”

“I wish to regard you as a dear friend,—­both of my own and of my husband,” said she, offering him her hand.

“Should I have had a chance, I wonder, if I had spoken a week since?”

“How can I answer such a question, Mr. Finn?  Or, rather, I will, answer it fully.  It is not a week since we told each other, you to me and I to you, that we were both poor,—­both without other means than those which come to us from our fathers.  You will make your way;—­will make it surely; but how at present could you marry any woman unless she had money of her own?  For me,—­like so many other girls, it was necessary that I should stay at home or marry some one rich enough to dispense with fortune in a wife.  The man whom in all the world I think the best has asked me to share everything with him;—­and I have thought it wise to accept his offer.”

“And I was fool enough to think that you loved me,” said Phineas.  To this she made no immediate answer.  “Yes, I was.  I feel that I owe it you to tell you what a fool I have been.  I did.  I thought you loved me.  At least I thought that perhaps you loved me.  It was like a child wanting the moon;—­was it not?”

“And why should I not have loved you?” she said slowly, laying her hand gently upon his arm.

“Why not?  Because Loughlinter—­”

“Stop, Mr. Finn; stop.  Do not say to me any unkind word that I have not deserved, and that would make a breach between us.  I have accepted the owner of Loughlinter as my husband, because I verily believe that I shall thus do my duty in that sphere of life to which it has pleased God to call me.  I have always liked him, and I will love him.  For you,—­may I trust myself to speak openly to you?”

“You may trust me as against all others, except us two ourselves.”

“For you, then, I will say also that I have always liked you since I knew you; that I have loved you as a friend;—­and could have loved you otherwise had not circumstances showed me so plainly that it would be unwise.”

“Oh, Lady Laura!”

“Listen a moment.  And pray remember that what I say to you now must never be repeated to any ears.  No one knows it but my father, my brother, and Mr. Kennedy.  Early in the spring I paid my brother’s debts.  His affection to me is more than a return for what I have done for him.  But when I did this,—­when I made up my mind to do it, I made up my mind also that I could not allow myself the same freedom of choice which would otherwise have belonged to me.  Will that be sufficient, Mr. Finn?”

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