Infelice eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 654 pages of information about Infelice.

Infelice eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 654 pages of information about Infelice.

“A slight faintness, that is all.  Mr. Waul, before the curtain rises to-night, I wish you to ascertain in what portion of the house the American minister’s box is located; write it on a slip of paper and send it to the dressing-room by your wife.  Just now I believe I have no other commissions.  If I do not ring my little bell, do not disturb me until five o’clock, then bring me a cup of strong coffee.  And, Mrs. Waul, please baste a double row of swan’s-down around the neck and sleeves of the white silk I shall wear to-night.  Let no one disturb me; not even the manager.”

As the husband and wife withdrew, she followed them to the door, locked it on the inside, and returned to the easy chair.  With a whitening, hardening face she reread the note, and thrust it into one of the silk pockets of her robe.

Although nine years had elapsed since we saw her first, in the mellow lamplight of Mr. Hargrove’s library, time had touched her so daintily, so lovingly, that only two lines were discernible about the mouth, where habitual compression has set its print; and it would have been difficult to realize that she was twenty-eight, had not the treacherous eyes betrayed the gloom, the bitterness, the ceaseless heartache that filled them with shadows, which prematurely aged the whole countenance.

The added years seemed only to have ripened and perfected her exquisite beauty, but with the rounded smoothness, and the fresh, pure colouring of youth was mingled a weird indescribable expression of stern hopelessness, of solemn repose, as if she had deliberately shaken hands for ever with all that makes life bright and precious, and were fronting with calm smile and quiet pulses a grim and desperate conflict, which she well knew could have an end only in the peace of the pall, that long truce, whose signal is the knell and the requiem.

Had she been reared amid the fatalistic influences of Arabia, she could not have more completely adopted and exemplified the marble motto:  “Despair is a free man; Hope is a slave.”  For her the rosy mist that usually hovers over futurity had been swept rudely aside, the softening glow of the To-Come had been precipitated into a dull, pitiless leaden ever present, at which she never raved nor railed, but inflexibly fought on, expecting neither sunshine nor succour, unappalled and patient as some stony figure of Fate, which chiselled when the race was young, feels the shrouding sands of centuries drifting around and over it, but makes no moan over the buried youth, and watches the approaching night with the same calm, steadfast gaze that looked upon the starry dawn, and the golden glory of the noon.

The cautious repression which necessity had long ago rendered habitual had crystallized into a mask, which even when alone she rarely laid aside for an instant.  In actual life, and among strong positive natures, the deepest feelings find no vent in the effervescence of passionate verbal outbreaks, and outside the charmed precincts of the tragic stage, the world would not tolerate the raving Hamlets and Othellos, the Macbeths and Medeas, that scowl and storm and anathematize so successfully in the magic glow of the footlights.

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