people talk about Rome in the same way.  It is evidently only a sort of idealized form of loafing:  a passive life in Rome, thanks to the number and the quality of one’s impressions, takes on a very respectable likeness to activity.  It is still lotus-eating, only you sit down at table, and the lotuses are served up on rococo china.  It ’s all very well, but I have a distinct prevision of this—­that if Roman life does n’t do something substantial to make you happier, it increases tenfold your liability to moral misery.  It seems to me a rash thing for a sensitive soul deliberately to cultivate its sensibilities by rambling too often among the ruins of the Palatine, or riding too often in the shadow of the aqueducts.  In such recreations the chords of feeling grow tense, and after-life, to spare your intellectual nerves, must play upon them with a touch as dainty as the tread of Mignon when she danced her egg-dance.”

“I should have said, my dear Rowland,” said Cecilia, with a laugh, “that your nerves were tough, that your eggs were hard!”

“That being stupid, you mean, I might be happy?  Upon my word I am not.  I am clever enough to want more than I ’ve got.  I am tired of myself, my own thoughts, my own affairs, my own eternal company.  True happiness, we are told, consists in getting out of one’s self; but the point is not only to get out—­you must stay out; and to stay out you must have some absorbing errand.  Unfortunately, I ’ve got no errand, and nobody will trust me with one.  I want to care for something, or for some one.  And I want to care with a certain ardor; even, if you can believe it, with a certain passion.  I can’t just now feel ardent and passionate about a hospital or a dormitory.  Do you know I sometimes think that I ’m a man of genius, half finished?  The genius has been left out, the faculty of expression is wanting; but the need for expression remains, and I spend my days groping for the latch of a closed door.”

“What an immense number of words,” said Cecilia after a pause, “to say you want to fall in love!  I ’ve no doubt you have as good a genius for that as any one, if you would only trust it.”

“Of course I ’ve thought of that, and I assure you I hold myself ready.  But, evidently, I ’m not inflammable.  Is there in Northampton some perfect epitome of the graces?”

“Of the graces?” said Cecilia, raising her eyebrows and suppressing too distinct a consciousness of being herself a rosy embodiment of several.  “The household virtues are better represented.  There are some excellent girls, and there are two or three very pretty ones.  I will have them here, one by one, to tea, if you like.”

“I should particularly like it; especially as I should give you a chance to see, by the profundity of my attention, that if I am not happy, it ’s not for want of taking pains.”

Cecilia was silent a moment; and then, “On the whole,” she resumed, “I don’t think there are any worth asking.  There are none so very pretty, none so very pleasing.”