There is something very touching about an old woman’s hand; I felt myself much more moved than the occasion warranted when she held me with her trembling fingers, moving them nervously up and down, so that I felt the small weak bones under the skin, all soft, full-veined, and wrinkled.

Her sister, Caroline Seymour, is younger, probably not more than sixty, and very active.  She has a bright, bird-like face, over which flits from time to time a sad little gleam of lost beauty.  Her fingers are always busy, and the beads in her cap bob up and down incessantly as she bends over her fancy-work.  Poor old souls—­poor old children!  I think my grandfather must have led them a life; there is a peacefulness upon them that suggests deliverance.  He has been dead just five weeks.

But the old house will see quiet days enough now.  I have wandered all over it, and find it a beautiful place in itself, although it is so stuffed with wool-work, vile china, gildings, wax flowers, and indescribable mantel-piece atrocities, that there is not a simple or restful corner anywhere.  Yet I find myself touched by its very hideousness, when I think that it probably looked even so, smelt even so stale and sweet, in the days of my dear father’s boyhood.  There is a picture in the large drawing-room that gives me infinite pleasure.  It is a portrait of my own grandmother with papa in a white frock on her knees, and my poor Aunt Fanny beside her, a neat little smiling girl in pink, with very long drawers.  There is something in the young mother’s face that, at first sight, made my father’s smile rise clearly to my memory.  I have since tried to recall the vision, but in vain.

My father’s half-brother, George Fletcher, a widower with a large family, who lives four miles from here, came to see me this afternoon, and I took a great dislike to him. (Did I hear you say “Of course"?) But really, dearest, these introductions are very painful; it is most unpleasant to have the undesirable stranger thrust upon one in the guise of friend and protector, to find oneself standing on a footing of inevitable familiarity with people whose hands one had rather not touch.  He kissed me, Constantia, but he certainly will not do so again.  Fortunately, I like my two old ladies; things might be worse.

To-morrow my lawyer comes from London to speak to me on business.  I shall be glad when the interview is over, for I understand nothing at all about business matters.  I can indeed barely grasp the fact that I have come into possession of land and money.  Heaven only knows what I am to do with it all.

Write to me; write soon.  You seem further away from me to-day than you did last night; and yet I should miss you more if I could realise my own existence.  Can you make your way through these contradictions?  It seems to me this evening that I, Emilia, am still beside you, that some one else sits here in exile with nothing written on the page of her future, not even by the finger of Hope.  Good night, dearest.