"Us" eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 199 pages of information about "Us".

"Us" eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 199 pages of information about "Us".
old soldier though he was,—­utterly broken down by this terrible blow.  While Grandmamma slowly drew her arm-chair a little nearer than usual to the fire, for grief makes people—­old people especially—­chilly.  All her briskness and energy were gone; her sweet old face was white and drawn, with no pretty pink flush in the cheeks now; her bright eyes were dimmed and paled by the tears they had shed, till now even the power of weeping seemed exhausted.

“I never thought—­no, through all I never thought,” she murmured to herself, so low that even if Grandpapa had been much sharper of hearing than he was her words could not have reached him,—­“I never thought that a day would come when I should thank the Lord that my Marmaduke—­yes, and poor little Lavinia too—­had not lived to see their darlings the pretty creatures they had become!  Yet now I am thankful—­thankful for them to have been spared this anguish.  Though, again, if they had been alive and well and able to take care of Duke and Pam, perhaps it would never have happened.”

And once more—­for the hundredth time, I daresay—­poor Grandmamma began torturing herself by wondering in what she had erred—­how could she have taken better care of the children?—­was it her fault or Grandpapa’s, or Nurse’s, or Biddy’s, or anybody’s?  There had been something the matter with Duke and Pam that last morning; they had had something on their little minds.  She had thought so at the time, and now she was more than ever sure of it.  What could it have been?

“I thought it best not to force their confidence, babies though they are,” she reflected.  “But perhaps if I had persuaded them very tenderly, they would have told me.  Was I too severe and strict with them, the darlings?  I meant to act for the best, but I am a foolish old woman—­if only the punishment of my mistakes could fall on me alone!  Ah dear, ah dear!—­it would have been hard to lose them by death, but in that case I should have felt that they were going to their father and mother; while now—­it is awful to picture where they may be, or what may have become of them!  Oh Toby, is it you, you poor little dog?” for just at this moment Toby rubbed himself against her foot, looking up in her face with a sad wistful expression in his bright eyes.  “Oh Toby, Toby,” said Grandmamma, “I wonder if you could tell us anything to clear up this dreadful mystery if you could talk.”

But Toby only wagged his tail—­he was very sad too, but he had far too much self-respect not to wag his tail when he was kindly spoken to, however depressed he might be feeling—­and looked up again, blinking his eyes behind their shaggy veil.

“Oh Toby,” said poor Grandmamma again, as if she really did not know what else to say.

And Grandpapa, half ashamed of his own prostration, roused himself to try to say a cheering word or two.

“We must hope still, my love,” he said.  “To-morrow may bring news from the Central London Police Office, where the Sandlingham overseer has written to.  He bade us keep up hope for a few days yet, we must remember.”

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