I was so amused with this last disastrous attempt to construct a revelation, that I laughed outright, and in so doing awoke. I found that my lamp was fast going out; so, dismissing the innocent volume of Leibnitz which had suggested all these incongruities, I went to bed; firmly convinced that the shadows of men in the “Paradise of Fools” are about as wise and ingenious as are men themselves. ____
July 28. I had this morning some curious, and, if it had not been for the grave importance of the subject, amusing conversation with Mr. Fellowes on his views, or rather his no views, respecting a “future life.” He said he wished he could make up his mind whether the doctrine was true; also whether, as some of his favorite writers supposed, it was of no “spiritual” importance to decide it. I said it certainly did seem of some importance. I reminded him of Pascal’s saying, that he could excuse men’s contented ignorance with any thing rather than that. “They are not obliged,” says he, “to examine the Copernican system; but it is vital to the whole of existence to ascertain whether the soul is mortal or not.”
“Mr. Newman,” said Fellowes, “thinks very differently: but then his whole mind is differently constituted from Pascal’s.”
I admitted it, of course.
“Mr. Newman’s views,” he continued, “on the subject, certainly do not quite satisfy me; and yet they are very sublime. If he has any hope in this matter, (of which he appears not absolutely destitute,) it is from the sheer strength of a ‘faith’ which triumphs over all obstacles, or rather hangs upon nothing. He ridicules all intellectual proofs, and at the same time declares that his ‘spiritual insight’ deserts him. It is a faith pure from all reason, and from all ‘insight’ too. As to insight in this matter, I must agree with him, that, to ascertain the fact of a future life by ‘direct vision,’ is ‘to me hitherto impossible.’”


