While waiting for Lily’s answer, Mike finished the last chapter of his book, and handed the manuscript to Frank.  Between the sentences he had speculated on the state of soul his letter would produce in her, and had imagined various answers.  “Darling, how good of you!  I did not know you loved me so well.”  She would write, “Your letter surprised me, but then you always surprise me.  I can promise you nothing; but you may come and see me next Thursday.”  She would write at once, of that there could be no doubt; such letters were always answered at once.  He watched the postman and the clock; every double knock made tumult in his heart; and in his stimulated perceptions he saw the well-remembered writing as if it lay under his eyes.  And the many communications he received during those days whetted the edge of his thirst, and aggravated the fever that floated in his brain.

And towards the end of the week, at the end of a long night of suffering, he went to London.  And for the first time, forgetful of himself, without a thought of the light he would appear in, he told the cabman where to drive.  His heart failed him when he heard that Miss Young had been ordered abroad by the doctor.  And as he walked away a morbid sense instilled in him that Lily would never be his bride.  Fear for her life persisted, and corrupted all his joy.  He could not listen to Lady Seeley’s solicitors, and he could not meditate upon the new life which Helen had given him.  He had inherited sixty thousand pounds in various securities, yielding three thousand a year; the estate in Berkshire brought in fifteen hundred a year; and a sum of twelve hundred pounds lay in the bank for immediate uses.

“Dear, sweet Helen—­she was the best of the lot—­none were as sweet as she.  Well, after all, it isn’t so strange when one thinks of it—­she hadn’t a relation in the world.  I must see her grave.  I’ll put a beautiful marble tomb over her; and when I’m in Berkshire I’ll go there every day with flowers.”

Then a shocking thought appeared in his mind.  Accustomed to analyse all sentiments, he asked his soul if he would give up all she had given him to have her back in life; and he took courage and joy when the answer came that he would.  And delighted at finding himself capable of such goodness, he walked in a happier mood.  His mind hung all day between these two women—­while he paid the rent that was owing there in Temple Gardens; while he valued the furniture and fixtures.  He valued them casually, and in a liberal spirit, and wrote to Frank offering him seven hundred pounds for the place as it stood.  “It is not worth it,” he thought, “but I’d like to put the poor fellow on his legs.”

Where should he dine?  He wanted distraction, and unable to think of any better relief, he turned into Lubi’s for a merry dinner.  The little gilt gallery was in disorder, Sally Slater having spent the afternoon there.  Her marquis was with her; her many admirers clustered about the cigarette-strewn table, anxious to lose no word of her strange conversation.  One drunkard insisted on telling anecdotes about the duke, and asking the marquis to drink with him.