She had always behaved honestly to him; she had never
encouraged him to hope that his love for her had the
faintest prospect of being returned. Yet, knowing,
as she did, that her conduct was blameless so far,
there were nevertheless perverse sympathies in her
which took his part. In the wakeful hours of the
night there were whispering voices in her which said:
“Think of Moody!” Had there been a growing
kindness towards this good friend in her heart, of
which she herself was not aware? She tried to
detect it—to weigh it for what it was really
worth. But it lay too deep to be discovered and
estimated, if it did really exist—if it
had any sounder origin than her own morbid fancy.
In the broad light of day, in the little bustling duties
of life, she forgot it again. She could think
of what she ought to wear on the wedding day; she
could even try privately how her new signature, “Isabel
Hardyman,” would look when she had the right
to use it. On the whole, it may be said that
the time passed smoothly—with some occasional
checks and drawbacks, which were the more easily endured
seeing that they took their rise in Isabel’s
own conduct. Compliant as she was in general,
there were two instances, among others, in which her
resolution to take her own way was not to be overcome.
She refused to write either to Moody or to Lady Lydiard
informing them of her engagement; and she steadily
disapproved of Miss Pink’s policy of concealment,
in the matter of the robbery at Lady Lydiard’s
house. Her aunt could only secure her as a passive
accomplice by stating family considerations in the
strongest possible terms. “If the disgrace
was confined to you, my dear, I might leave you to
decide. But I am involved in it, as your nearest
relative; and, what is more, even the sacred memories
of your father and mother might feel the slur cast
on them.” This exaggerated language—like
all exaggerated language, a mischievous weapon in
the arsenal of weakness and prejudice—had
its effect on Isabel. Reluctantly and sadly, she
consented to be silent.
Miss Pink wrote word of the engagement to Moody first;
reserving to a later day the superior pleasure of
informing Lady Lydiard of the very event which that
audacious woman had declared to be impossible.
To her aunt’s surprise, just as she was about
to close the envelope Isabel stepped forward, and
inconsistently requested leave to add a postscript
to the very letter which she had refused to write!
Miss Pink was not even permitted to see the postscript.
Isabel secured the envelope the moment she laid down
her pen, and retired to her room with a headache (which
was heartache in disguise) for the rest of the day.
While the question of marriage was still in debate,
an event occurred which exercised a serious influence
on Hardyman’s future plans.