is it?  I ‘shrink,’ shrink from it.  That’s your word!—­and mine!  Dearest, I began by half a jest and end by half-gravity, which is the fault of your doctrine and not of me I think.  Yet it is ungrateful to be grave, when practically you are good and just about the letters, and generous too sometimes, and I could not bear the idea of obliging you to write to me, even once ... when....  Now do not fancy that I do not understand.  I understand perfectly, on the contrary.  Only do you try not to dislike writing when you write, or not to write when you dislike it ... that, I ask of you, dear dearest—­and forgive me for all this over-writing and teazing and vexing which is foolish and womanish in the bad sense.  It is a way of meeting, ... the meeting in letters, ... and next to receiving a letter from you, I like to write one to you ... and, so, revolt from thinking it lawful for you to dislike....  Well! the Goddess of Dulness herself couldn’t have written this better, anyway, nor more characteristically.

I will tell you how it is.  You have spoilt me just as I have spoilt Flush.  Flush looks at me sometimes with reproachful eyes ’a fendre le coeur,’ because I refuse to give him my fur cuffs to tear to pieces.  And as for myself, I confess to being more than half jealous of the [Greek:  eidolon] in the gondola chair, who isn’t the real Ba after all, and yet is set up there to do away with the necessity ’at certain times’ of writing to her.  Which is worse than Flush.  For Flush, though he began by shivering with rage and barking and howling and gnashing his teeth at the brown dog in the glass, has learnt by experience what that image means, ... and now contemplates it, serene in natural philosophy.  Most excellent sense, all this is!—­and dauntlessly ‘delivered!’

Your head aches, dearest.  Mr. Moxon will have done his worst, however, presently, and then you will be a little better I do hope and trust—­and the proofs, in the meanwhile, will do somewhat less harm than the manuscript.  You will take heart again about ‘Luria’ ... which I agree with you, is more diffuse ... that is, less close, than any of your works, not diffuse in any bad sense, but round, copious, and another proof of that wonderful variety of faculty which is so striking in you, and which signalizes itself both in the thought and in the medium of the thought.  You will appreciate ‘Luria’ in time—­or others will do it for you.  It is a noble work under every aspect.  Dear ‘Luria’!  Do you remember how you told me of ‘Luria’ last year, in one of your early letters?  Little I thought that ever, ever, I should feel so, while ‘Luria’ went to be printed!  A long trail of thoughts, like the rack in the sky, follows his going.  Can it be the same ‘Luria,’ I think, that ‘golden-hearted Luria,’ whom you talked of to me, when you complained of keeping ‘wild company,’ in the old dear letter?  And I have learnt since, that ‘golden-hearted’ is not a word for him only, or for him most.  May God bless you, best and dearest!  I am your own to live and to die—­