She was, however, what is termed, the pet of the family,
the centre to which all their affections turned; and
as she herself felt conscious of this, there is little
doubt that the extreme indulgence, and almost blameable
tenderness which they exercised towards her, did by
imperceptible degrees disqualify her from undergoing
with firmness those conflicts of the heart, to which
a susceptibility of the finer emotions rendered her
peculiarly liable. Indeed among the various errors
prevalent in domestic life, there is scarcely one that
has occasioned more melancholy consequences than that
of carrying indulgence towards a favorite child too
far; and creating, under the slightest instances of
self-denial, a sensitiveness or impatience, arising
from a previous habit of being gratified in all the
whims and caprices, of childhood or youth. The
fate of favorite children in life is almost proverbially
unhappy, and we doubt not that if the various lunatic
receptacles were examined, the malady, in a majority
of cases, might be traced to an excess of indulgence
and want of proper discipline in early life.
Had Mr. Sinclair insisted on knowing from his daughter’s
lips the cause of her absence from prayers, and given
a high moral proof of the affection he bore her, it
is probable that the consciousness on her part of
his being cognizant of her passion, would have kept
it so far within bounds as to submit to the control
of reason instead of ultimately subverting it.
This, however, he unhappily omitted to do, not because
he was at all ignorant that a strict sense of duty,
and a due regard for his daughter’s welfare,
demanded it; but because her distress, and the childlike
simplicity with which she cast herself upon his bosom,
touched his spirit, and drew forth all the affection
of a parent who “loved not wisely but too well.”
Let not my readers, however, condemn him too harshly
for this, for alas, he paid, in the bitterness of
a father’s misery, a woeful and mysterious penalty
of a father’s weakness. His beloved one
went before, and the old man could not remain behind
her; but their sorrows have passed away, and both
now enjoy that peace, which, for the last few years
of their lives, the world did not give them.
From this time forth Jane’s ear listened only
to the music of a happy heart, and her eye saw nothing
but the beauty of that vision which shone in her pure
bosom like the star of evening in some limpid current
that glides smoothly between rustic meadows, on whose
green banks the heart is charmed into happiness by
the distant hum of pastoral life.
Love however will not be long without its object,
nor can the soul be happy in the absence of its counterpart.
For some time after the interview in which the passion
of our young lovers was revealed, Jane found solitude
to be the same solace to her love, that human sympathy
is to affliction. The certainty that she was
now beloved, caused her heart to lapse into those
alternations of repose and enjoyment which above all