Jane Sinclair; Or, The Fawn Of Springvale eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 214 pages of information about Jane Sinclair; Or, The Fawn Of Springvale.

Jane Sinclair; Or, The Fawn Of Springvale eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 214 pages of information about Jane Sinclair; Or, The Fawn Of Springvale.

With a scrupulous attention to her father’s precept, as well as from a principle of early and sincere piety, she strove on reaching her bedroom to compose her mind in prayer, and to beg the pardon of Heaven for her wilful suppression of the truth.  This was a task, however, to which she was altogether unequal.  In vain she uttered words expressive of her sorrow, and gave language to sentiments of deep repentance; there was but one idea, but one image in her mind, viz.:  her beautiful boy, and the certainty that she was the object of his love.  Again and again she attempted to pray, but still with the same success.  It was to no purpose that she resolved to banish him from her thoughts, until at least the solemn act of her evening-worship should be concluded; for ere she had uttered half a sentence the image would return, as if absolutely to mock her devotions.  In this manner she continued for some time, striving to advance with a sincere heart in her address to heaven; again recommencing with a similar purpose, and as often losing herself in those visions that wrapped her spirit in their transports.  At length she arose, and for a moment felt a deep awe fall upon her.  The idea that she could not pray, seemed to her as a punishment annexed, by God to her crime of having tampered with the love of truth, and disregarded her father’s injunctions not to violate it.  But this, also, soon passed away:  she lay down, and at once surrendered her heart and thought and fancy to the power of that passion, which, like the jealous tyrant of the East, seemed on this occasion resolved to bear no virtue near the heart in which it sat enthroned.  Such, however, was not its character, as the reader will learn when he proceeds; true love being in our opinion rather the guardian of the other virtues than their foe.

The next morning, when Jane awoke, the event of yesterday flashed on her memory with a thrill of pleasure that made her start up in a recumbent posture in the bed.  Her heart bounded, her pulse beat high, and a sudden sensation of hysterical delight rushed to her throat with a transport that would have been painful, did she not pass out of a state of such panting ecstacy and become dissolved in tears.  She wept, but how far did she believe the cause of her emotion to be removed from sorrow?  She wept, yet alas! alas! never did tears of such delight flow from a source that drew a young heart onward to greater darkness and desolation.  Weep on, fair girl, in thy happiness; for the day will come when thou will not be able to find one tear in thy misery!

Her appearance the next morning exhibited to the family no symptoms of illness.  On the contrary, she never looked better, indeed seldom so well.  Her complexion was clearer than usual, her spirit more animated, and the dancing light of her eye plainly intimated by its sparkling that her young heart was going on the way of its love rejoicing.  Her family were agreeably surprised at this, especially when they

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