The Memories of Fifty Years eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 720 pages of information about The Memories of Fifty Years.

The Memories of Fifty Years eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 720 pages of information about The Memories of Fifty Years.

I have been wandering among the graves of those loved best when the heart could love most, and dead memories sprouted anew, and with them a flash of the feelings which made them treasures of the heart.  Yonder is the grave of Thomas W. Cobb; near me is that of him most loved—­William C. Dawson; and here, in this green grave, is Yelverton P. King; and near him is the last resting-place of Adeline Harrison.  Dear, sweet Adeline, you went, in truth, to heaven, ere yet the bud of life had opened into flower!  This is the county of my birth, and all of these, save Cobb, were natives, too, of the dear old land.

To me, how near and dear were these!  Turn back, O Time, thy volume for fifty years, and let me read over anew the records of dead days, and make memories once more realities, as they were real then—­else hurry on to the end, that I may know with these, or with these forget forever!  I would not linger in the twilight of life, with all of time dimming out, and nothing of eternity dawning upon my vision.  Let me sleep in the forgetfulness of the one, to awake to the fruition of the other!

I have been to the graves of my father and my mother.  For more than a third of a century they have been sleeping here.  I sat down in the moonlight, and placed my hand upon the cold, heavy stone which rests above them:  they do not feel its pressure, but sleep well.  They are but earth now—­and why am I here?  The moon and the stars are the same, and as sweetly bright, looking down upon this sacred spot, as they were when, a little child, I sat upon the knee of her who is nothing here, and listened to her telling me the names of these, as she would point to them, and ask me if I did not see them winking at me.  Yet they are there, and the same now as then.  But where is that gentle, sweet, affectionate mother?  Is she up among these gems of heaven?  Is she yonder in the mighty Jupiter, looking down, and smiling at me?  Is she permitted, in her new being, to come at will, and breathe to my mind holy thoughts and holy feelings?  Disembodied, is she, as God, pervading all, and knowing all?  Does she, with that devotion of heart which was so much hers in time, still love and protect me?  Shall I, when purified by death, go to her? and shall this hope become a reality, and endure forever?  Surely, this must be true; or, why are these thoughts and hopes in the mind—­why this affection sublimated still in the heart—­why this link between the living, and the dead, if its fruition shall be denied in eternity?  Why this question, which implies a doubt of the goodness of God?  Sweet is the belief, sweeter the hope, that I shall see that smile of benignity, feel that gentle, loving caress, and forever, in unalloyed bliss, participate heaven with her.  My mother—­my mother! see you into my heart, here by your gravestone, to-night?  Hast thou gone with me through my long pilgrimage of time?  If I have kept thy counsels, and walked by their wisdom, hast thou approved, my mother? 

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