“Hamil,” he said, “whatever is harsh, aggressive, cynical, mean, sneering, selfish in me has been externally acquired.  You scrape even a spineless mollusc too long with a pin, and the irritation produces a defensive crust.  I began boy-like by being so damned credulous and impulsive and affectionate and tender-hearted that even my kid sister laughed at me; and she was only three years older than I. Then followed that period of social loneliness, the longing for the companionship of boys and girls—­girls particularly, in spite of agonies of shyness and the awakening terrors of shame when the domestic troubles ended in an earthquake which gave me to my father and Helen to my mother, and a scandal to the newspapers....  O hell!  I’m talking like an autobiography!  Don’t go, if you can stand it for a moment longer; I’m never likely to do it again.”

Hamil, silent and uncomfortable, stood stiffly upright, gloved hands resting on the balustrade behind him.  Malcourt continued to stare at the orange-and-yellow butterflies dancing over the snowy beds of blossoms.

“In college it was the same,” he said.  “I had few friends—­and no home to return to after—­my father-died.”  He hesitated as though listening.  Whenever he spoke of his father, which was seldom, he seemed to assume that curious listening attitude; as though the man, dead by his own hand, could hear him....

“Wayward saw me through.  I’ve paid him back what he spent on me.  You know his story; everybody does.  I like him and sponge on him.  We irritate each other; I’m a beast to resent his sharpness.  But he’s not right when he says I never had any illusions....  I had—­and have....  I do beastly things, too....  Some men will do anything to crush out the last quiver of pride in them....  And the worst is that, mangled, torn, mine still palpitates—­like one of your wretched, bloody quail gaping on its back!  By God!  At least, I couldn’t do that!—­Kill for pleasure!—­as better men than I do.  And better women, too!...  What am I talking about?  I’ve done worse than that on impulse—­meaning well, like other fools.”

Malcourt’s face had become drawn, sallow, almost sneering; but in the slow gaze he turned on Hamil was that blank hopelessness which no man can encounter and remember unmoved.

“Malcourt,” he said, “you’re morbid.  Men like you; women like you—­So do I—­now—­”

“It’s too late.  I needed that sort of thing when I was younger.  Kindness arouses my suspicion now.  Toleration is what it really is.  I have no money, no social position here—­or abroad; only a thoroughly discredited name in two hemispheres.  It took several generations for the Malcourts to go to the devil; but I fancy we’ll all arrive on time.  What a reunion!  I hate the idea of family parties, even in hell.”

He straightened up gracefully and lighted his cigarette; then the easy smile twitched his dry lips again and he nodded mockingly at Hamil: