My Keats, at least, was dry. I kept the volume under my belt and against my naked belly.
And I was happy and buoyed up by the thought, which lessened my discomfiture, that Sunday morning thousands of readers in comfortable homes would be reading about me, would gaze upon my photograph.
People looked out of their farmhouse windows at me as if an insane man were stalking by.
It darkened rapidly.
My first night’s shelter was in a leaky outhouse. The farmstead to which it belonged had burned down. I might have been taken in at any number of places, but my access of timidity was too great ... it might on the following dawn be followed by as great an effrontery. My year in college had disorganized me, pulled me out of my tramp character. It was no more a usual thing to beg or ask for shelter.
I could not sleep. My muscles were already overstrained from the excessive effort of struggling along in the tenacious mud, like a fly escaping from the edge of spilled molasses.
I had brought a box of small candles for just such an emergency. I lit one after the other, sat on the seat, and read Keats all night ... in an ecstasy, forgetting my surroundings, my pitiful poverty, my pilgrimage that would seem ridiculous to most.
The rain increased. Outside it drummed and drummed. Inside it dripped and dripped.
And as I sat there, upright, to escape the drip from the leaks, I climbed to a high, crystal-clear state of spirit.
Again I burned through Keats’ life as if remembering that it was what I had myself suffered ... as if suddenly I awoke to the realisation that I was Keats, re-born in America, a tramp-student in Kansas....
And now Severn, my true, faithful friend, was with me.... Severn, who had given up his career as painter to be near me in my last days ... we were on the Maria Crowther ... we were still off the coast of England, and I had gone ashore for the last touching of my foot on English soil....
There hung the great, translucent star of evening, at that hushed moment of twilight, before any other of the stars had come forth....
“Bright star, would I were steadfast
as thou art—
Not in lone splendour hung aloft the night,
And watching, with eternal lids apart,
Like nature’s patient, sleepless
Eremite,
The moving waters at their priestlike
task
Of pure ablution round earth’s human
shores,...”
The evening star made me dream of immortality and love—my love for Fanny Brawne....
Now we, Severn and I, were journeying across the country to Rome ... voyaging, rather, through fields of flowers ... like my procession of Bacchus in Endymion ... that was a big poem, after all....
Now the fountain played under the window ... where I was to die....
“Severn, I feel the daisies growing over me.”
“Severn, I—I—Severn ... I am dying ... Severn, lift me up—I—”


