“What more is there than our confidence in each other and our content?” she said.
And, as he did not respond: “I wonder if you realise how perfectly lovely you have been to me since you have come into my life? Do you? Do you remember the first day—the very first—how I sent word to you that I wished you to see my first real dinner gown? Smile if you wish—Ah, but you don’t, you don’t understand, my poor friend, how much you became to me in that little interview. . . . Men’s kindness is a strange thing; they may try and try, and a girl may know they are trying and, in her turn, try to be grateful. But it is all effort on both sides. Then—with a word—an impulse born of chance or instinct—a man may say and do that which a woman can never forget—and would not if she could.”
“Have I done—that?”
“Yes. Didn’t you understand? Do you suppose any other man in the world could have what you have had of me—of my real self? Do you suppose for one instant that any other man than you could ever obtain from me the confidence I offer you unasked? Do I not tell you everything that enters my head and heart? Do you not know that I care for you more than for anybody alive?”
“Gerald—”
She looked him straight in the eyes; her breath caught, but she steadied her voice:
“I’ve got to be truthful,” she said; “I care for you more than for Gerald.”
“And I for you more than anybody living,” he said.
“Is it true?”
“It is the truth, Eileen.”
“You—you make me very happy, Captain Selwyn.”
“But—did you not know it before I told you?”
“I—y-yes; I hoped so.” In the exultant reaction from the delicious tension of avowal she laughed lightly, not knowing why.
“The pleasure in it,” she said, “is the certainty that I am capable of making you happy. You have no idea how I desire to do it. I’ve wanted to ever since I knew you—I’ve wanted to be capable of doing it. And you tell me that I do; and I am utterly and foolishly happy.” The quick mischievous sparkle of gaminerie flashed up, transforming her for an instant—“Ah, yes; and I can make you unhappy, too, it seems, by talking of marriage! That, too, is something—a delightful power—but”—the malice dying to a spark in her brilliant eyes—“I shall not torment you, Captain Selwyn. Will it make you happier if I say, ’No; I shall never marry as long as I have you’? Will it really? Then I say it; never, never will I marry as long as I have your confidence and friendship. . . . But I want it all!—every bit, please. And if ever there is another woman—if ever you fall in love!—crack!—away I go”—she snapped her white fingers—“like that!” she added, “only quicker! Well, then! Be very, very careful, my friend! . . . I wish there were some place here where I could curl up indefinitely and listen to your views on life. You brought a book to read, didn’t you?”


