Life of Lord Byron, Vol. 6 (of 6) eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 484 pages of information about Life of Lord Byron, Vol. 6 (of 6).

Life of Lord Byron, Vol. 6 (of 6) eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 484 pages of information about Life of Lord Byron, Vol. 6 (of 6).
avoid remark, would still be remarkable.  I had cultivated his acquaintance subsequently, and endeavoured to obtain his friendship, but this last appeared to be unattainable; whatever affections he might have possessed, seemed now, some to have been extinguished, and others to be concentred:  that his feelings were acute, I had sufficient opportunities of observing; for, although he could control, he could not altogether disguise them:  still he had a power of giving to one passion the appearance of another, in such a manner that it was difficult to define the nature of what was working within him; and the expressions of his features would vary so rapidly, though slightly, that it was useless to trace them to their sources.  It was evident that he was a prey to some cureless disquiet; but whether it arose from ambition, love, remorse, grief, from one or all of these, or merely from a morbid temperament akin to disease, I could not discover:  there were circumstances alleged, which might have justified the application to each of these causes; but, as I have before said, these were so contradictory and contradicted, that none could be fixed upon with accuracy.  Where there is mystery, it is generally supposed that there must also be evil:  I know not how this may be, but in him there certainly was the one, though I could not ascertain the extent of the other—­and felt loth, as far as regarded himself, to believe in its existence.  My advances were received with sufficient coldness; but I was young, and not easily discouraged, and at length succeeded in obtaining, to a certain degree, that common-place intercourse and moderate confidence of common and every-day concerns, created and cemented by similarity of pursuit and frequency of meeting, which is called intimacy, or friendship, according to the ideas of him who uses those words to express them.

Darvell had already travelled extensively; and to him I had applied for information with regard to the conduct of my intended journey.  It was my secret wish that he might be prevailed on to accompany me; it was also a probable hope, founded upon the shadowy restlessness which I observed in him, and to which the animation which he appeared to feel on such subjects, and his apparent indifference to all by which he was more immediately surrounded, gave fresh strength.  This wish I first hinted, and then expressed:  his answer, though I had partly expected it, gave me all the pleasure of surprise—­he consented; and, after the requisite arrangement, we commenced our voyages.  After journeying through various countries of the south of Europe, our attention was turned towards the East, according to our original destination; and it was in my progress through those regions that the incident occurred upon which will turn what I may have to relate.

The constitution of Darvell, which must from his appearance have been in early life more than usually robust, had been for some time gradually giving way, without the intervention of any apparent disease:  he had neither cough nor hectic, yet he became daily more enfeebled:  his habits were temperate, and he neither declined nor complained of fatigue; yet he was evidently wasting away:  he became more and more silent and sleepless, and at length so seriously altered, that my alarm grew proportionate to what I conceived to be his danger.

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