The girl stole out a hand, and his gripped it hard.  Then she remembered the conventions and pulled it away, and sat a little more upright.  She was extraordinarily conscious of herself, and she felt as if she had two selves that day.  One was Hilda Lessing, a girl she knew quite well, a well-trained person who understood life, and the business of society and of getting married, quite correctly; and the other was somebody she did not know at all, that could not reason, and who felt naked and ashamed.  It was inexplicable, but it was so.  That second self was listening to heroics and even talking them, and surely heroics were a little out of date.

She looked across a wide green space, and saw, through the distant trees, the procession of the church parade.  She felt as if she ought to be there, and half unconsciously glanced at her dress.  A couple of terriers ran scurrying across the grass, and a seat-ticket man came round the corner.  Behind them a taxi hooted, and some sparrows broke out into a noisy chatter in a bush.  And here was Peter talking of death, and the Cross—­and out of church, too.

She gave a little shudder, and glanced at a wrist-watch.  “Peter,” she said, “we must go.  Dear, for my sake, do think it over.  Wait a little, and see what happens.  I quite understand your point of view, but you must think of others—­even your Vicar, my parents, and of me.  And Peter, shall we say anything about our—­our love?  What do you think?”

Peter Graham looked at her steadily, and as she spoke he, too, felt the contrast between his thoughts and ordinary life.  The London curate was himself again.  He got up.  “Well, darling,” he said, “just as you like, but perhaps not—­at any rate until I know what I have to do.  I’ll think that over.  Only, we shan’t change, shall we, whatever happens?  You do love me, don’t you?  And I do love you.”

Hilda met his gaze frankly and blushed a little.  She held out a hand to be helped up.  “My dear boy,” she said.

After luncheon Peter smoked a cigar in the study with Mr. Lessing before departure.  Every detail of that hour impressed itself upon him as had the events of the day, for his mind was strung up to see the inner meaning of things clearly.

They began with the usual ritual of the selection of chairs and cigars, and Mr. Lessing had a glass of port with his coffee, because, as he explained, his nerves were all on edge.  Comfortably stretched out in an armchair, blowing smoke thoughtfully towards the empty grate, his fat face and body did not seem capable of nerves, still less to be suffering from them, but then one can never tell from appearances.  At any rate he chose his words with care, and Graham, opposite but sitting rather upright, could not but sense his meaning.

“Well, well, well,” he said, “to think we should come to this!  A European war in this century, and we in it!  Not that I’ll believe it till I hear it officially.  While there’s life there’s hope, eh, Graham?”