“Oh, I’d love to! Only wait until I put out the stove and tidy my hair.”
“I want to see what you have to eat,” he remarked in his whimsical tone, as he followed her back into the kitchen. “Only an egg!”
“It is so hot. I wasn’t hungry, but I am now,” she replied gaily, her thin face flushing to beauty. After her loneliness there was a delight in being cared for, in being scolded. “But for the mistake I made this might happen to me always,” she thought, and her mind went back to Arthur.
When she came out of her room, wearing a fresh linen blouse, with her hair smoothly brushed, and her eyes sparkling with pleasure, he was gazing abstractedly down into the street, and she was obliged to speak twice to him before he heard her and turned. At last he broke away, almost with an effort, from his meditation, and when he looked at her she saw that there was the mystic gleam in his eyes—the light as of a star shining through clouds—which attracted her so strongly. The thought flashed through her vague impressions, “He loves me. I may win him by a smile, by a word, by a look,” and, for a minute, she rested on the certainty with an ineffable sense of peace, of ease, of deep inward rejoicing. “Love is everything. There is nothing worth while except love,” she thought; and love meant to her then, not passion, not even romance, but comfort, tenderness, and the companionship that sweetens the flat monotony of daily living. Then, beneath the beauty and sweetness of the vision, she felt the vein of iron in her soul as she had felt it whenever she struggled to escape the sterner issues of life. The face of Arthur rose in her memory, tender, wistful, protecting, and young with the eternal youth of desire. No, love was not for her again. Not for the second time would she betray the faith of her Dream.
They dined at a little French restaurant, where the green-shaded lights, festooned with grape leaves, shed a romantic pallor over their faces, and the haunting refrains of an Italian love song stirred the buried ghosts in their hearts. The doctor made her drink a glass of champagne; and after her frugal meals and the weakening effect of the heat and the loneliness, the sparkle of the wine, mingling with the music and the lights, sent a sudden rush of joy through her veins. Her courage came back to her, not in slow drops, but in a radiant flood, which pervaded her being. After the lonely months there was delight in the clasp of a friend’s hand, in the glance of a friend’s eye, in the sound of a friend’s voice speaking her name. Life appeared divinely precious at the instant; and by life she meant not happiness, not even fulfilment, but the very web, the very texture and pattern of experience.
“You’re better already,” he said, with a solicitude that was more intoxicating than wine to her. “How I wish I’d known all summer that you were here. I might have done something to make you happy, and now I’ve missed my chance.”