Middlemarch eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 1,180 pages of information about Middlemarch.

Middlemarch eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 1,180 pages of information about Middlemarch.

“You are sure to believe me better than I am in everything but one,” said Will, giving way to his own feeling in the evidence of hers.  “I mean, in my truth to you.  When I thought you doubted of that, I didn’t care about anything that was left.  I thought it was all over with me, and there was nothing to try for—­only things to endure.”

“I don’t doubt you any longer,” said Dorothea, putting out her hand; a vague fear for him impelling her unutterable affection.

He took her hand and raised it to his lips with something like a sob.  But he stood with his hat and gloves in the other hand, and might have done for the portrait of a Royalist.  Still it was difficult to loose the hand, and Dorothea, withdrawing it in a confusion that distressed her, looked and moved away.

“See how dark the clouds have become, and how the trees are tossed,” she said, walking towards the window, yet speaking and moving with only a dim sense of what she was doing.

Will followed her at a little distance, and leaned against the tall back of a leather chair, on which he ventured now to lay his hat and gloves, and free himself from the intolerable durance of formality to which he had been for the first time condemned in Dorothea’s presence.  It must be confessed that he felt very happy at that moment leaning on the chair.  He was not much afraid of anything that she might feel now.

They stood silent, not looking at each other, but looking at the evergreens which were being tossed, and were showing the pale underside of their leaves against the blackening sky.  Will never enjoyed the prospect of a storm so much:  it delivered him from the necessity of going away.  Leaves and little branches were hurled about, and the thunder was getting nearer.  The light was more and more sombre, but there came a flash of lightning which made them start and look at each other, and then smile.  Dorothea began to say what she had been thinking of.

“That was a wrong thing for you to say, that you would have had nothing to try for.  If we had lost our own chief good, other people’s good would remain, and that is worth trying for.  Some can be happy.  I seemed to see that more clearly than ever, when I was the most wretched.  I can hardly think how I could have borne the trouble, if that feeling had not come to me to make strength.”

“You have never felt the sort of misery I felt,” said Will; “the misery of knowing that you must despise me.”

“But I have felt worse—­it was worse to think ill—­” Dorothea had begun impetuously, but broke off.

Will colored.  He had the sense that whatever she said was uttered in the vision of a fatality that kept them apart.  He was silent a moment, and then said passionately—­

“We may at least have the comfort of speaking to each other without disguise.  Since I must go away—­since we must always be divided—­you may think of me as one on the brink of the grave.”

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