Middlemarch eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 1,180 pages of information about Middlemarch.

Middlemarch eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 1,180 pages of information about Middlemarch.

“From what I see of the case,” he ended, “narcotism is the only thing I should be much afraid of.  He may wear through even without much food.  There’s a good deal of strength in him.”

“You look ill yourself, Mr. Lydgate—­a most unusual, I may say unprecedented thing in my knowledge of you,” said Bulstrode, showing a solicitude as unlike his indifference the day before, as his present recklessness about his own fatigue was unlike his habitual self-cherishing anxiety.  “I fear you are harassed.”

“Yes, I am,” said Lydgate, brusquely, holding his hat, and ready to go.

“Something new, I fear,” said Bulstrode, inquiringly.  “Pray be seated.”

“No, thank you,” said Lydgate, with some hauteur.  “I mentioned to you yesterday what was the state of my affairs.  There is nothing to add, except that the execution has since then been actually put into my house.  One can tell a good deal of trouble in a short sentence.  I will say good morning.”

“Stay, Mr. Lydgate, stay,” said Bulstrode; “I have been reconsidering this subject.  I was yesterday taken by surprise, and saw it superficially.  Mrs. Bulstrode is anxious for her niece, and I myself should grieve at a calamitous change in your position.  Claims on me are numerous, but on reconsideration, I esteem it right that I should incur a small sacrifice rather than leave you unaided.  You said, I think, that a thousand pounds would suffice entirely to free you from your burthens, and enable you to recover a firm stand?”

“Yes,” said Lydgate, a great leap of joy within him surmounting every other feeling; “that would pay all my debts, and leave me a little on hand.  I could set about economizing in our way of living.  And by-and-by my practice might look up.”

“If you will wait a moment, Mr. Lydgate, I will draw a cheek to that amount.  I am aware that help, to be effectual in these cases, should be thorough.”

While Bulstrode wrote, Lydgate turned to the window thinking of his home—­ thinking of his life with its good start saved from frustration, its good purposes still unbroken.

“You can give me a note of hand for this, Mr. Lydgate,” said the banker, advancing towards him with the check.  “And by-and-by, I hope, you may be in circumstances gradually to repay me.  Meanwhile, I have pleasure in thinking that you will be released from further difficulty.”

“I am deeply obliged to you,” said Lydgate.  “You have restored to me the prospect of working with some happiness and some chance of good.”

It appeared to him a very natural movement in Bulstrode that he should have reconsidered his refusal:  it corresponded with the more munificent side of his character.  But as he put his hack into a canter, that he might get the sooner home, and tell the good news to Rosamond, and get cash at the bank to pay over to Dover’s agent, there crossed his mind, with an unpleasant impression, as from a dark-winged flight of evil augury across his vision, the thought of that contrast in himself which a few months had brought—­that he should be overjoyed at being under a strong personal obligation—­ that he should be overjoyed at getting money for himself from Bulstrode.

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