It was almost miraculously easy to get out of England.  It was almost suspiciously easy.  My passport frankly gave the object of my trip as “literary work.”  Perhaps the keen eyes of the inspectors who passed me onto the little channel boat twinkled a bit as they examined it.

The general opinion as to the hopelessness of my trying to get nearer than thirty miles to the front had so communicated itself to me that had I been turned back there on the quay at Folkstone, I would have been angry, but hardly surprised.

Not until the boat was out in the channel did I feel sure that I was to achieve even this first leg of the journey.

Even then, all was not well.  With Folkstone and the war office well behind, my mind turned to submarines as a sunflower to the sun.  Afterward I found that the thing to do is not to think about submarines.  To think of politics, or shampoos, or of people one does not like, but not of submarines.  They are like ghosts in that respect.  They are perfectly safe and entirely innocuous as long as one thinks of something else.

And something went wrong almost immediately.

It was imperative that I get to Calais.  And the boat, which had intended making Calais, had had a report of submarines and headed for Boulogne.  This in itself was upsetting.  To have, as one may say, one’s teeth set for Calais, and find one is biting on Boulogne, is not agreeable.  I did not want Boulogne.  My pass was from Calais.  I had visions of waiting in Boulogne, of growing old and grey waiting, or of trying to walk to Calais and being turned back, of being locked in a cow stable and bedded down on straw.  For fear of rousing hopes that must inevitably be disappointed, again nothing happened.

There were no other women on board:  only British officers and the turbaned and imposing Indians.  The day was bright, exceedingly cold.  The boat went at top speed, her lifeboats slung over the sides and ready for lowering.  There were lookouts posted everywhere.  I did not think they attended to their business.  Every now and then one lifted his head and looked at the sky or at the passengers.  I felt that I should report him.  What business had he to look away from the sea?  I went out to the bow and watched for periscopes.  There were black things floating about.  I decided that they were not periscopes, but mines.  We went very close to them.  They proved to be buoys marking the Channel.

I hated to take my eyes off the sea, even for a moment.  If you have ever been driven at sixty miles an hour over a bad road, and felt that if you looked away the car would go into the ditch, and if you will multiply that by the exact number of German submarines and then add the British Army, you will know how I felt.