mother through a tragedy the fearful details of which
were even now unknown to him,* he had relinquished
all his share of their property to an elder brother.
His only remaining link with the world was his sister;
he had undertaken the care of her, stirred by a kind
of religious affection for her feeble intelligence.
The dear innocent was so childish, such a very little
girl, that she recalled to him the poor in spirit
to whom the Gospel promises the kingdom of heaven.
Of late, however, she had somewhat disturbed him;
she was growing too lusty, too full of health and
life. But his discomfort was yet of the slightest.
His days were spent in that inner life he had created
for himself, for which he had relinquished all else.
He closed the portals of his senses, and sought to
free himself from all bodily needs, so that he might
be but a soul enrapt in contemplation. To him
nature offered only snares and abominations; he gloried
in maltreating her, in despising her, in releasing
himself from his human slime. And as the just
man must be a fool according to the world, he considered
himself an exile on this earth; his thoughts were
solely fixed upon the favours of Heaven, incapable
as he was of understanding how an eternity of bliss
could be weighed against a few hours of perishable
enjoyment. His reason duped him and his senses
lied; and if he advanced in virtue it was particularly
by humility and obedience. His wish was to be
the last of all, one subject to all, in order that
the divine dew might fall upon his heart as upon arid
sand; he considered himself overwhelmed with reproach
and with confusion, unworthy of ever being saved from
sin. He no longer belonged to himself—blind,
deaf, dead to the world as he was. He was God’s
thing. And from the depth of the abjectness to
which he sought to plunge, Hosannahs suddenly bore
him aloft, above the happy and the mighty into the
splendour of never-ending bliss.
* This forms the subject of M. Zola’s
novel, The Conquest of
Plassans. ED.
Thus, at Les Artaud, Abbe Mouret had once more experienced,
each time he read the ‘Imitation,’ the
raptures of the cloistered life which he had longed
for at one time so ardently. As yet he had not
had to fight any battle. From the moment that
he knelt down, he became perfect, absolutely oblivious
of the flesh, unresisting, undisturbed, as if overpowered
by the Divine grace. Such ecstasy at God’s
approach is well known to some young priests:
it is a blissful moment when all is hushed, and the
only desire is but a boundless craving for purity.
From no human creature had he sought his consolations.
He who believes a certain thing to be all in all cannot
be troubled: and he did believe that God was all
in all, and that humility, obedience, and chastity
were everything. He could remember having heard
temptation spoken of as an abominable torture that
tries the holiest. But he would only smile:
God had never left him. He bore his faith about