them, or nobody one has ever seen before. Out
of La Trappe, which does not suit a Protestant man,
there is perhaps no place where one can be so perfectly
alone. I might study even but, as I said, there
are noises going on; a
last desperate spasmodic
effort of building,—a new top-story to
the house, out of which is to be made one “spacious
room” (so they call it, though it is under twenty
feet square) where there shall be air
ad libitum,
light from the sky, and no
sound, not even
that of the Cremorne Cannons, shall find access to
me any more! Such is the prophecy; may the gods
grant it! We shall see now in about a month;—then
adieu to mortar-tubs to all Eternity:—I
endure the thing, meanwhile, as well as I can; might
run to a certain rural retreat near by, if I liked
at any time; but do not yet: the worst uproar
here is but a trifle to that of German inns, and horrible
squeaking, choking railway trains; and one does not
go to seek this,
this is here of its own will,
and for a purpose! Seriously, I had for twelve
years had such a sound-proof inaccessible apartment
schemed out in my head; and last year, under a poor,
helpless builder, had finally given it up: but
Chelsea, as London generally, swelling out as if it
were mad, grows every year noisier; a
good
builder turned up, and with a last paroxysm of enthusiasm
I set him to. My notion is, he will succeed;
in which case, it will be a great possession to me
for the rest of my life. Alas, this is not the
kind of
silence I could have coveted, and could
once get,—with green fields and clear skies
to accompany it! But one must take such as can
be had,—and thank the gods. Even
so, my friend. In the course of about a year
of that garret sanctuary, I hope to have swept away
much litter from my existence: in fact I am already,
by dint of mere obstinate quiescence in such circumstances
as there are, intrinsically growing fairly sounder
in nerves. What a business a poor human being
has with those nerves of his, with that crazy clay
tabernacle of his! Enough, enough; there will
be all Eternity to rest in, as Arnauld said:
“Why in such a fuss, little sir?”
You “apologize” for sending people to
me: O you of little faith! Never dream
of such a thing nay, whom did you send?
The Cincinnati Lecturer* I had provided for with
Owen; they would have been glad to hear him, on the
Cedar forests, on the pigs making rattlesnakes into
bacon, and the general adipocere question, under any
form, at the Albemarle Street rooms;—and
he never came to hand. As for Miss Bacon, we
find her, with her modest shy dignity, with her solid
character and strange enterprise, a real acquisition;
and hope we shall now see more of her, now that she
has come nearer to us to lodge. I have not in
my life seen anything so tragically quixotic
as her Shakespeare enterprise: alas, alas, there
can be nothing but sorrow, toil, and utter disappointment