The sexual organs have never been fully developed, and the
    testicles, though large, are of a flabby consistence.  He cannot
    whistle.  He thinks he ought to have been a woman.

At school he was shy and reserved, and had no particular intimacy with anyone, although he once desired it.  He learned self-abuse from his younger brother, who had learned it from an older boy.  He has never had erotic dreams.  He never touched anyone but his brother until later when travelling in Italy, and then only his fellow-traveller.  When travelling in Asia Minor he had many opportunities, but always put them aside from fear, afterward regretting his fearfulness.  He yearned for intimacy with particular friends, but never dared to express it.  He went much to theaters, and what he saw there incited him to masturbation.  When he was about 30 years of age his reserve, and his fear of treachery and extortion, were at last overcome by an incident which occurred late at night at the Royal Exchange, and again in a dark recess in the gallery of the Olympic Theater when Gustavus Brooke was performing.  From that time the Adelphi Theater, the Italian Opera, and the open parks at night became his fields of adventure.  He remarks that among people crowding to witness a fire he found many opportunities.  His especial intimates were a railway clerk and an Italian model.  In more recent years he has chiefly found gratification among footmen and policemen.

He is exclusively passive; also likes mutual fellatio.  He used greatly to admire finely developed forms (conscious of his own shortcomings), shapely limbs, and delicate brown hair, and always admired strength and manly vigor.  He never took any interest in boys, and has always been indifferent to women.

HISTORY XXIV.—­A medical man, English, aged 30.  He believes that his father, who was a magistrate, was very sympathetic toward men; on several occasions he has sat with him on the bench when cases of indecent assault were brought up; he discharged three cases, although there could be little doubt as to their guilt, and was very lenient to the others.

From the age of 9 he loved to sleep with his brother, ten years older, who was in the navy; they slept in different beds, and the child went to bed early, but he always kept awake to see his brother undress, as he adored his naked body; and would then get into his bed.  He learned the habit of masturbation from his brother at the age of 9; at that time there was no sexual orgasm, but watching it in his brother was a perpetual source of wonder and pleasure.  During his brother’s absence at sea the boy longed for his return and would practice self-abuse with the thought of his brother’s naked body before him.  This brother’s death was a source of great